I cant handle D/s right now. Not in the mental space I am in.
I recently let go of my D/s relationship and I have thought a lot on why.
It boils down to two things. Expectations and obligations. When your relationships or interactions with people feel like this you know there is something wrong.
These two concepts are core to being a responsible human being but its the spirit with which they are handled that makes all the difference. No one should feel that they are just an obligation and that their needs are met only because its has been expected to be so. The missing ingredient is passion.
I want to feel driven again. I want to feel butterflies in my stomach again. I need to be so inthralled and excited that my obligations to my partner and expectations that go along with it are self-evident afterthoughts not leaden weights that choke the joy out of my existence.
So I left it all behind me. I am breathing free and easy. I am stoking the fire from embers again and I am enjoying the solitude for a little while.
Maybe its a little selfish but it was absolutely necessary.
