For many people, this is the beginning of their BDSM adventure, for others this can be a hard limit. When we began, I believed this would be a hard limit because of my past. Enter in now the generic father issues with spanking and hitting blah blah blah. Having these issues is painful, don't get me wrong. I still cannot handle people yelling. What I have found it to be more than anything else is annoying. I want to enjoy life without having triggers. My Sir and I discussed this at length, and we decided to try, and respect the safeword.
We got soft spanking out of the way and I enjoyed it greatly! He accidentally hit in the wrong area a little harder and sent me triggered into a curled up mess. So we sat and discussed it more. Waited a couple of days, and tried again. Quickly he learned where to avoid the spanks, and how long he can go with hard spanks before it would trigger. Today, I can proudly say that we have made it to leaving marks and almost bruises as a reward as well as a punishment. I am not wanting him to stop, been looking eagerly to bring tools into this play time. I don't know how, but he completely has helped me overcome a trigger that has been around for over 25 years. 1 down, countless to go, but I finally have something to give me hope. I look over at my Sir and it sends me shivering into presenting just imagining him spanking me in a couple minutes to find out whether he approves or not of my post.
So, now i want to ask a question to whoever is reading this, where should we go from here? What toys would you recommend, and where to get them? We are also looking into getting into bondage! We have bed cuffs and such but we are looking into the intricate life of ropes. Where would you recommend starting?
For those wondering, I may not be posting everyday because I know I will get burned out, but I will post when I feel the urge to write.
Have a great kinky day lovelies, and when in doubt, say "yes, Sir".