Six months passed and I received an email. My heart didn't know which way to go. It was from "R". I took a few moments trying to decide whether I should open it. With hands shaking, through fear and hope, I clicked on the email.
He began by apologizing for the circumstances surrounding our separation. He went on to tell about the events of his almost year of being back with his son's mother. (not married) She had become a threat to herself and all around her. "Enough was enough", I quote him.
He rented a house in the town where he worked, and took his 8 year old son and 15 year old stepson to this house for their own protection. He got a restraining order against her coming near the house or the children. He said he would like me to be a part of his life again, as friends. Inspite of all that had happened between us, part of my heart still had a hole that could only be filled by him, even if "just a friend". I needed to think about it.
After two days of deep thought and reflection, I contacted him by phone. The conversation was awkward, each trying to avoid saying something that would bring up hurtful issues. The next morning I was on my way to his house.
It was a warm, sunny September day. My car windows were down, as I drove over back roads surrounded by leaves changing colors. I concentrated on the beauty instead of apprehensive thoughts. An hour passed and I pulled up in front of his house. He opened the door before I could knock and I entered to meet his sons for the first time. This was going to be interesting.
I began visiting him once a week on weekends. After awhile it became once a week for three days at a time. My daughter was almost 18. She was a very responsible young women. It was fine leaving her alone for three days at a time. We considered it as preparation for when she would be on her own. (It had been agreed to that when she graduated and turned 18, that her father could have his house back). After my daughter's birthday, I moved to "R"'s.
After weeks, months of talking whenever we had the time and privacy, forgiveness given for that which was out of our control. W/we came to a decision. Admittedly the way the separation happened was all wrong. Those thoughts will remain as a lesson going forward. O/our hearts were once again whole. W/we were very much still Dom and sub, after having endured and survived the realities that had been placed in O/our path.