Trying to find a Dom worth while is a lot harder than I thought. Much of who I have met reminds me of the same issues in the vanilla world. They get what they want, well in my case they don't get what they want and move on or they lose interest because they asked for a picture and didn't like what they saw. Shallowness really sucks. The mind is powerful yet no one wants the body it comes with. Who will give me their time so that I can prove I am worthwhile!! Who will give me their promise that my body won't chase them away!! That if they make me eat a certain way, there is a diamond just needing to be chiseled and formed. I am not self disciplined when it comes to my own needs. I wasn't brought up taking care of myself. My mind was always forced to think of other's needs before my own. So teach me to take care of myself. Nurture the side of me that was neglected. I need a Daddy Dom!! I am great with everything else in my life. I organize, clean, cook, take care of finances,
But as far as my personal self. I don't dress up because I have no style. I don't wear make up because my ex was against it. I was allowed to on Halloween so my stage make up skills are phenomenal! Make me eat vegan and I can be a size 6 by next year! Make me work out and I can be that sooner!! I am in school right now so all my time is going to that. Once I graduate if I am working my ass off to get in better shape so that I can keep up with all the playing that my Dom needs. I just need someone to take the time to train me and mold me. But not so much to where I lose who I am. I want to be enhanced and upgraded. Not torn down and be completely rebuilt. I do have two kids and they come with me!
