My true experiences

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This man in all his glory...stands up...and me being only 5'4 he towers over me even in my boots which give me 3 inches...he still towers...I'm guessing he's 6'5 at least...and mmmmm mmmmmm mmmmm do i love a man who can tower over me....idk why I just do...I take it he's aware of this bc its in my files. I stand straight, if there is one thing I always do whether its sitting or standing, I've always had the right posture grilled into me since I was a kid...I'm a little embarrassed bc even though I perform as a bdsm demonstrator its a completely different stripe on a cat...this was very private and intimate, directed directly at my flaws, things I need to work on, when I'm out on a "stage" its basically teaching techniques and showing the correct way to do things, how to properly use toys and tools...teaching people to read their sub or slaves limits...but this display was all about me...so I can already tell how this night is going to be...I wait quietly by his side, I'm going to try my hardest not to draw attention to myself...that should be easy enough, right? As I stand next to Jacob, he still has my leash in hand, with his free hand he wraps it around the back of my neck and tilts my head up so he can look into my eyes, he is grinning from ear to ear, and then his lips crashed down onto mine, its aggressive, no restraints kiss...he doesn't even wait for permission, his tongue invades my mouth and I follow his lead....he wants me to play this game with him....oh I'll play, I NEVER BACK DOWN, but I do let him take what he needs in this moment but as he's about to separate our union, I suck his bottom lip in between my teeth and nibble his lip....with just a little force and then I pull away and he stands there almost like its unbelievable that I was the one to break our kiss and I know now he wants more...more of my soft feather lips....of my warm wet pretty mouth....mmmmm I can see it in those green eyes of his, he's searching in my eyes for that same hint, but I know better, I don't give him a thing except a smirk that's says "BRING IT" and at that he tugs my leash hard and my nipples that are already as hard as glass, get even harder and the tug on the leash digs into my clamps in even more...I stifle my moan, he knows this and says "Mmm hmmm baby girl, oh sweet baby girl, you will be undone and I will have every inch of your body, mind and soul trembling at my very touch....at my kiss at just a word from my mouth..." I can't help but smirk harder and before I can stop myself I say "oh yeah? Is that what SIR THINKS? I DARE YOU..." And at that he grabs me around my waist and throws me over his shoulders, he shoves his hand between my legs, spreads my pussy lips and with his free hand, he spits on it and begins to finger fuck me "that's not how you treat YOUR SIR" "I will break your defiance baby girl, and it looks like I'm going to need to be VERY STRICT with that filthy back talking mouth of yours!" "Now you get my dungeon..." And at the second I'm a little worried about his dungeon....very worried as I think to myself "fuck me and my disobedient mouth....FUCK!" And as my pussy is being fucked with his one hand, I watch as we approach the door at the back of the 'green room' and his free hand turn the door knob.....

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"FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!!" I done fucked up now, I know it and he DEFINITELY knows it, and in an instant I'm not standing, I'm across his lap as *smack* his hand comes down hard on my ass...*smack* again and*smack*again as he is punishing me he says "I will not tolerate you speaking to me that way!" "With such disobedience" "You will learn your place and if not, I've got many other uses for that pretty little mouth of yours!" *SMACK* this time its much harder and with more purpose..*SMACK* he must be wearing some kind of heavy chain bracelet under his suit shirt bc its cutting into my skin the harder he spanks me, but I'm enjoying this and when his hand comes down hard again a small moan escapes my lips...his hand comes down really really hard and another breathy moan comes from me, he knows I'm aroused, he can feel it...he grabs my hair tight with the hand holding my leash and as he tugs my hair and head up to look at me he also makes my clamps dig into my skin and there is no way to hide the pure sound of pleasure that comes from my lips, a very wicked smile plays on his lips and theres that glint in his eyes again. And as my body tenses waiting for his hand to come down even harder on my supple bubble ass, instead his hand goes under my skirt, he pushes my butterfly off to the side, he shoves his index and middle finger into my mouth, forcing em down my throat "yeah get my finger soo fucking wet, mmmm just like that baby girl.." As fast as they were in my mouth they were gone and he wasted no time, as he shoved his 2 digits into my dripping wet pussy..I gasp bc even though I knew what he had intended, the speed and force in which he moved was in a blink..."mmmmm, that's my good girl, mmmm damn baby, your pussy is soo fucking tight." As he continues to finger fuck my pussy,he still holding both my leash and hair, He's watching every expression that I make, my breathing is heavy and my back is arched up, he bends to my ear, licks it, inside and out...I tremble and my pussy gushes "mmmmm, baby girl, i knew you could behave for SIR, its not so bad behaving like a good girl is it?" "Do you think you can take my compliments now, baby girl?" I'm literally trembling as he's still fingering me, it feels soo incredibly good, I know I need to answer him, so I bite my bottom lip hard to gain some composer "Uh huh" ...he smiles bc he knows how hard he's driving at trying to give me an orgasm, but I won't allow it....I know this game...so even though I'm stammering when I say it, I still make myself spit it out  "yes....sir"...."yes...please....and thank you SIR." I regain a lot of my composer he pulls his fingers out of me, licks all my juices off his fingers..."mmmm we're going to have sooo much fun tonight my beautiful baby girl."  He adjust my butterfly and my skirt, gives my ass 2 more hard smack, lifts me off his lap, his cock is literally tenting his suit pants, so as he's putting me back on my feet I graze his throbbing cock with my hand, bite my lip and stare him dead in his eyes, he smiles and shakes his head.."you're going to be a challenge for me" I nod my head and grin "YES SIR!"

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His hand tightens possessively on my mid back, he blows a stream of hot air into my ear before he licks my ear down my neck...I'm trying my hardest not to grab him by his hair and pull him off to tell him "I didn't give you permission, did I?" So my body tenses....I close my eyes and tell myself...be a good girl....be a good girl... As I exhale, I feel him sucking on the area where my neck meets my shoulders....without the slightest warning he bites down so hard, I let out a little scream, he smiles and laughs in his chest.."oh beautiful, this is going to be fun..." Pulls my leash with a powerful tug, and my nipples are so hard and incredibly sensitive...it feels wonderful...I can feel my clamps digging deeper into the skin.."MMMMM" I moan under my breath and rub my thighs together..."mmhmm, that's a good girl" I bite my lip and look at him through my eyelashes...my come fuck me look as I've been told...he breaths in deep and the hand with the leash pulls down to his large throbbing cock, he thrusts himself into his hand, growls low in his chest "fuck" "that look, your eyes...mmmm that mouth" he exhales, stands straight and starts leading me by my leash towards a door at the back of the room...hmmmm funny i didn't even notice that was there..as he's leading me to the door he turns and speaks loud and with purpose "Listen to me now." The room goes quiet, all I can hear is my heartbeat pounding in my ears and the jingling of the leash connected to my nipple clamps..I turn a little red in my cheeks bc of course everyone can now hear the jingling as he talks and motions with his hands "You all know what you've got to do and where at what time, Jack has the key for the wardrobe." "Now I expected  you all to do the job that I hired you to do." "Your itinerary, with everything you need to demonstrate is on there." He looks at me & gives me a small smile as he tightens the grip on my leash and continues "And do you see her?" "This absolute beauty of a woman?" His eyes haven't left me since he started talking but now he scans the room and the people..."would you please stop this! You are embarrassing me!" I say this as I'm looking directly at him...this has got to be some form of humiliation bc he knows what my file says about myself and that I'm DEFINITELY not good at accepting praise, compliments, gifts etc..that's when I feel it, he tugs my leash so very strong I stumbled and almost fall to the ground, but he catches me in his strong arms, adjusts me upright, grabs my chin with his free hand, tilts my head so I'm looking up into his freakishly green eyes "I will NOT stop any of this, YOU are the one who needs to accept the TRUTH about yourself" "I don't understand how a woman like you, so clearly beautiful on the inside and completely comfortable in her own skin, cannot accept that she is ALSO BEAUTIFUL on the outside of her skin?" I try to look away but he holds my eyes.. "Hmmm?" "I'm waiting"  I speak soft almost a whisper "I just don't like being praised...I know what I am and who I am and what I DON'T NEED, and I don't need a room full of people I HAVE TO WORK WITH resenting me for this display of attention!” I pull out of his grasp, his jaw drops and in my mind I say "FUCK" I've just made a little error.

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As soon as he turns his attention to me I try my hardest NOT to jump down his throat about the comments he just made, I look him dead in the eye and ask "what was that?" "Why would you ever make that statement?" "Im trying ever so hard to remain professional, but its a comment like that, that really makes me not want to participate." I'm watching him intently..as I am also aware of everyone else in the room, is listening by busing themselves with small tasks...I stand my ground bc I know how this game he is trying to play works...I know I look young and in his eyes that means i am also naive but what he doesn't know is I'm almost to the end of my time being a demonstrator.. Coming up on doing it for 10 years..I straighten my back, shoulders back chin up and wait....He's watching me just as intently...finally he says "I am sorry but no one is allowed to have you BEFORE I have you, its as simple as that" and with a smug smile he steps towards me grabs my leash and tugs me into his embrace...my body trembles...I breath deep and he smells so damn good...like he showered in the rain at night at the edge of a forest of Redwood...I didn't know then what he had in store for me...and honestly I was ready, I knew the only way to do this was to just let go...which I definitely struggle with. His one hand wrapping my leash tighter around his hand with each twist...and the sexual tension grows....he puts his other hand on my middle back and pulls me taut against his muscles chest and abs..which I can feel on my large tits...my breath becomes short as he lightly grazes my ear with his lips and whispered "you will relinquish yourself to me beautiful" "and when I finally have you completely, that's when you and I will be equals" I hold my breath, he has no idea what I'm capable of..so I smile sweetly and nod my head...like a good girl

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I stepped into the "green room" and I met by 4 males and 1 other female...I'm not going to use their names...just in case....I take a deep breath and compose myself, me being who I am, let the event that almost just occur slide off my back, I'm happy again...I can breath again...I smile and introduce myself, now I've seen their profiles when I agreed the job but names, not so good at placing, so I introduce myself and try and remember their names as they tell me...the room is set up like a lounge area...big comfy couches in one area and against the wall on the other side of the room theres a couple vanities...next to each vanity is a cabinet for wardrobe...on each cabinet there is one of our names,I find mine and as I try to open it, its locked...hmmmm...so i turn and ask the other demonstrators if its the same with their wardrobe...yes...I look down on the vanity to find a map and stations with the time and person and what will be demonstrated in that space and time frame. My name seems to be in every time frame but I'm only in one spot...this is going to be the longest event I've ever participated in...and low and behold im to play a sub for 2 of the 4 men and after that I'm to play slave host for the other 2 men...I clear my mind and breath.. My eyes are closed as a knock is heard at the door.....I already know who it is, I can almost feel  this man through the walls and door...the door opens and the tall handsome drink of water swaggers into the room.. I hadn't noticed I was holding my breath until his eyes locked on to mine....I exhale...just from that look...like a lion staring  down it prey...my inner core ignites and my pussy begins to ache...my nipples are instantly hard and my clamps dig into the skin...mmmmm i bite my bottom lips and squeeze my thighs together....trying like hell to get my fire under control....I exhale a low breathy moan and the dom next to me turns his head, his eyes rake over my body, his eyes meet mine and a very naughty smile graces his lips. He stands and starts to head for me and just as he's about to reach his hand out and touch me, the tall drink of water is there, grabs his hand and says "no, not yet" he clears his throat, turns his back to me but is facing everyone in the room "I've picked and chosen each of you, by my hand..this event will be my gift to our community..BUT and hear me well." He turns and looks me dead in the eyes as he continues.  "NO FUCKING AROUND WITH EACHOTHER BEFORE OR AFTER ON MY PREMISES." As he drags his eyes over me he adds "DEFINITELY NOT WITH THIS ONE, DO I MAKE MYSELF CLEAR" everyone in the room is eyeing me now and I'm very angry that he has the audacity to make that statement....I hold my breath, my nerves are firing on all cylinders and he can see this...but before I can even make a move he releases the Dom's hand and comes to stand at my side....then tells everyone to go about they're business...I'm furious! I'm almost seeing red and he knows it...

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As he holds me by my leash smiling...that glint flashes in his eyes again and I know that flash....his smile grows and so does his cock...he tells me he loves the leash... attached to? " Nipple piercings, maybe?" I shake my head and say "just my clamps." He sucks air in his mouth as if he just ate something hot and spicy.  I try to regain his composer and ask him about the job... "Tsk..tsk..tsk" " we will discuss all of that, AFTER I've inspected my hire." Hard tug on the leash, a moan comes from me..."shit" I think in my head. He knows exactly what he has achieved and pulls me over so he can sit in his desk chair. I go through his inspection..." Please turn around facing the wall, and bend down placing your hands on your boot...or palms on the floor."  I do as I'm told...he stands and walks right to my ass, grabs my hips and pulls on my hips so my ass is now on his cock, he maneuvers us in small circles.i can feel his cock inbetween my ass cheeks, he's throbbing through both layers of our clothing..."mmmmm yes, that's fucking beautiful" smacks my ass hard. I try my best not to let myself get sexual charged...I need to stay professional with this man..he lays his chest down on my back, my hands still on my boots...and he slides both his hands up my curves..to my tits and tries to get under my corset...but my corset is so extremely tight...he can't...I am soooo thankful I love to feel pain and my corset gives me just enough pain the entire time I wear it...it grounds me...."ooh...hoo...hoo...so you like shit tight, do you?" "Yes, very much so.". He grabs my hair and pulls my body upright, and slams me against his body... "Yes, what?" He's looking down into my eyes and I totally forgot that the entire time I'm here he is to be referred to as Sir..it's in the fucking contract...shit....so I clear my throat, bite my lip and correct myself "Yes, Sir" as soon as I say this it's like a switch goes off and I watched it...I watched the expression on his face change... his eyes changed...he changed....he pulls me to the desk and throws me face down onto it.....he kicks my legs apart with his legs....I can hear a low deep growl coming from his chest...his hands are all over me...and I know that this can't happen...so as soon as I hear him unbuckle his suit pants...I stand up still leaning on the desk and I say in my firm voice..."Jacob, I'm not a prostitute....I'm here for the bdsm event, remember sugar?" And all of a sudden he's laughing, like a crazy person...so I'm just a small amount of worried..but I still keep my cool bc I have a job to do...I slowly turn around and face him...I take my leash from him and grab my bag and head out the door...as soon as I'm on the other side of the closed door, he stops laughing...I just book it down the 3 flights of winedy stairs and get to the room I'm suppose to be in...I must have looked really flushed bc I was almost to the room when Jack stopped me and asked me what was wrong...I said nothing and headed into the room...my fucking night hasn't even started yet and I'm really worried about the other Dom's this guy hired.. 

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I've been working non-stop as of late... tonight I actually sat down...as I sit here my mind is filled with deliciously filthy thoughts...I need a release..I want to be bent over and fucked....fucked so hard I forget my life for a while...I ache for a cock that can give it to me how I need it...not a bar lay... lately I've been so disappointed with these supposed Dom's.... they're either too nice or can't take me on....so I am left wanting.... needing.....I need a man that can put up with me and my mouth....my dominant side is my natural side but that doesn't mean I don't need to be put in my place.... someone who can take control...throw me against a wall tear my panties off and take what he wants...ram his cock into my tight little pussy...fuck me senseless....grab my hair and bend me over....force me on my knees and face fuck the shit out of my mouth...Mmm I crave it......fuck me💋

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I'm ready and waiting for my night to begin...I check my leather outfit in the mirror for the millionth time...it's still perfect... tonight is a little different than any of my other demonstrating jobs I've been doing.... tonight is either going to make me or break me but I'm leaning towards the first....I check the info and it's says no need to bring anything.... everything is provided new and in package...even still I've brought one item besides myself...it's my favorite black riding crop...I grab it and smack it into my hand...Mmm that feeling I get when this crop does it's job.....my core starts to heat up and my pussy begins to ache...I squeeze my thighs together to try and calm myself....I check the time... almost time to leave so I zip up my suede thigh high boots and arch my back as I zip the last little bit....the leather I'm in is like a second skin as it hugs and conforms to my body...I have regular clothes on over my seductive leather bc I don't want to attract any attention walking from my car to this job...it's by invite only and wouldn't want to start anything before I even get to the venue. I drive and park... checking and rechecking to make sure I've got the right address...yes, yes I do...I grab my bag and pull my coat tightly around myself....these Chicago winter's are nothing to mess around with...as I approach the venue...I can't believe what I am seeing....it looks like it was once a church... gargoyles sit on the edges protecting the steeples....it's a grey, white and black large brick building..looks like something out of a scary novel or movie....it's beautiful...I stop and scan the entire front as I try and memorize this moment in time...a cold wind blows and I snap out of the trance this place has fogged my mind with...I find the door I'm suppose to knock on....I knock.... anticipation grows....no answer....I knock again...harder this time....still nothing...my mind starts to wander...is this the right place? Am I here on the wrong date or time? Just as I'm about to pull my phone out and call the organizer...the door jerks open with a very errie creepy cracking noise...and standing at the door is a wall of 6'5 muscle...his voice is very commanding but his face is soft ...asks me my name...I tell him my info and he checks his list....he checks me off and moves aside to let me in...I step into a hallway and he tells me where the changing rooms are but first I'm to go up to the third floor office....the organizer wants to meet with me...he pops his head into another room and tells a man in there to listen for the door...he then leads me up through a labrynth of doors and hallways....up a winding staircase and finally to a 3rd floor room with a wooden very ornate door...he knocks, I can hear men and women voices laughing and talking behind the door...the door swings open and a well dressed very handsome man is standing there....the man who led me to this room, I come to find out his name is Jack and the other man, his name being Jacob, he's the organizer of this event. The 2 men discuss something and as much as I strain my ears to hear them I catch only fragments...but I definitely heard my name.. Jack is a tree of a man and I am dwarfed by how massive his body is... finally Jacob tells Jack to go and take care of something...Jack steps to one side and gives me a gentle smile, I return his kindness, then Jacob takes my hand and as I look at this very handsome man I notice right away that he is dripping with wealth and by the way he is dressed and his mannerisms I would put money down that it's old money, his suit is handmade Italian he's leather shoes are the same...but it's his scent that confirms my suspicions, it's earthy...woodsy but not musky... almost like he just stepped out of the woods after showering in the rain with a hint of stardust...it's very intoxicating...but I keep my wits as best I can...he folds my body into his chest and wraps his free hand around my waist as he brings me into the room...as we enter the door closes behind us and my nerves are on high alert...the 3 men in the room are dressed the same as Jacob...2 are sitting in brown leather chairs and one is leaning against the wall...there are 3 women here too, they are all sitting on a red velvet lounge sofa...they all stop conversing and look at me...I feel like I'm on display... Jacob laughs....his laugh is light and rolls off my shoulders...I smile at these people and the return to their conversation...still being held by Jacob, he leads me to the desk in the room and in one swift motion he releases me and takes my coat off and h7angs it on the coat rack....I'm a little shocked at his movements...he moves like fluid...but what makes the flags and bells go off in my head is the way he is looking at me...there's something in those eyes of his....the are a green I've rarely seen but beautiful none the less but it's the glint in them that I can tell he's trying to hide...I clear my throat and come out of the daze that I've been in since entering this room...I reach my hand out and tell him my name for him to shake, and he grabs my hand and brings my fingers to his mouth and sucks on my index and middle finger...a moan escapes him and I quickly take my hand away and say sternly "please I just need to sign the contract for the job tonight and I really need to get ready" even though I'm already ready...I need to not be in a room with this man...I'm a very petite individual and he towers over me...bad situations can arise through a man's greed and wants...I know this all to well...I stand my ground watching him watch me...a smile breaks on his lips...he clears his throat, and the men and women get up and leave the office...now we're alone and my mind starts to think of strategies to get out if things go wrong...he sits at the desk and says "come here" I hesitate he laughs and says " I won't bite... unless you want me to...now come here" I do as requested....he stands he walks around me roaming over my body...every curve...he twirls his finger in my curls bites down on his lip and groans " fuck your gorgeous" "now let me see your outfit" I tell him I need to see some kind of proof he's the one who hired me for this event...he's shocked by the way I am bcmost of the women he hires probably throw themselves at this man and I can see why but this is my livelyhood, I can't afford to make mistakes.. "you're very different from the other ones who demonstrate, are you aware of this?" Hmmm.. "Your very intriguing, I must say"...so I tell him I still need to see something that shows me who he is before I strip down for this guy...he pulls out his passport.. check the name..it checks out...I smile and say thank you...he sits facing me....I slowly remove my "normal" clothing...to reveal a black leather corset...a green and black mini school girl skirt.....and my collar with leash attached....he can see my leash is also attached to my nipple clamps...he stands and walks over to me.....he circles me like a shark to prey.....he bends and puts both hands on my suede boots...runs his hands up them...licks his lips....steps back ... circles around me again...then he releases the clip my hair was in...my red curls fall....he grabs my hair pulls my head back against his chest and with his free hand grabs my leash and tugs it a few times.. each tug a little harder than his last. As my neck is exposed to this tower of a man, he pulls my hair to the side to get a better angle of my neck, before I can protest or pull away he inhales my scent, a low growl emits from him and I feel his tongue lick from my collarbone all the way up my neck to my ear...my pussy ignites.....but I know better....I spin away from his body but he still has my by the leash....he holds me there at arm's length just smiling at me.

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I know the reasoning behind me being turned on by me being the way I am...why I crave punishment...why I need to rally against the norm.... going against the grain feels oh soooooo good...it always starts off as a small flicker of fire and as time passes and I build that fire into an inferno of misbehaving, disrespecting and just plain fighting for the upper hand...for that control....I only do it with certain people...the ones who know how to handle my internal fire....and can nurture and keep my fire ablaze...it's definitely not easy finding those types and as my phone rings I know he is not one of them....he's gotten burned by the fire that rages inside of me and he has no idea how to control it...or me....but he did try and now I know I'm out of his good graces... there's that all too familiar tone in the messages he leaves me....and as I listen to him TRY and berate me and TRY to break me a smile breaks across my lips.....bc it's been so much fun taking him out of his comfort zone.... watching his eyes alight with anger bc of the way I talk or act towards him... disobedience will not be tolerated with this one.....but I push that envelope anyways...I always do.... against the grain, remember? He thought he could handle me and put me in my place but in the end...in the end I was the one who broke him in....I was the one to take and keep his control....in the end I've got to start from the beginning. I'll be hoping the next one will take it....and crave it...need it.....want it.....start an inferno with me while we stand in the flames.

The phone rings....I know exactly who it is....I ignore him.....that feeling starts to blossom...deep down.....it's almost excitement but also a little bit of fear....my phone dings a few times in a row....oh I know how he's feeling...I can sense his impatience..his wanting...but I bite my tongue and still ignore him.....I know how much this is going to get under that very muscular skin of his....he doesn't like disobedience....but see there inlies the problem bc I do....I crave it.... I love pushing the boundaries...and at this point in time the boundaries just happen to be him....the funny thing is, he thinks he's using me...and in a way that is true but only at a physical level.....I use him across the board....and he doesn't even see it.....he still thinks he's got the upper hand in this card game and his not even aware he's playing against the house dealer.....it's almost to the breaking point though I can feel it in him....and I'm not a monster but he is so my phone rings again...silence.....rings......silent...I smile at my phone...he's got to be almost losing it..... just that thought alone makes me giggle to myself....as my phone rings again...I slowly contemplate answering him....my hand reaching out for it.... for him......but still I refrain from giving him what he wants...yet again...my phone makes a bell sound..he's left a message....one that he is seething with anger....and all towards me and my secret love....my secret obsession..... disobedience

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