The phone rings....I know exactly who it is....I ignore him.....that feeling starts to blossom...deep down.....it's almost excitement but also a little bit of fear....my phone dings a few times in a row....oh I know how he's feeling...I can sense his impatience..his wanting...but I bite my tongue and still ignore him.....I know how much this is going to get under that very muscular skin of his....he doesn't like disobedience....but see there inlies the problem bc I do....I crave it.... I love pushing the boundaries...and at this point in time the boundaries just happen to be him....the funny thing is, he thinks he's using me...and in a way that is true but only at a physical level.....I use him across the board....and he doesn't even see it.....he still thinks he's got the upper hand in this card game and his not even aware he's playing against the house dealer.....it's almost to the breaking point though I can feel it in him....and I'm not a monster but he is so my phone rings again...silence.....rings......silent...I smile at my phone...he's got to be almost losing it..... just that thought alone makes me giggle to myself....as my phone rings again...I slowly contemplate answering him....my hand reaching out for it.... for him......but still I refrain from giving him what he wants...yet again...my phone makes a bell sound..he's left a message....one that he is seething with anger....and all towards me and my secret love....my secret obsession..... disobedience
to be continued...