Good morning Kinksters
I've been pondering a series of questions presented to me and I'm still at a cross roads for the answer. I am Bi, Triad/V Poly and while seeking our other I get all kinds of weird, lewd, and sometimes mentally unstable approaches. I enjoy them all! Different strokes for different folks but every blue moon I get to talk with someone who is wonderful to talk with and stimulating with their conversation. This brings me to my current predicament...
In my quest I've stated Female, MtF who is already out and at minimum on Hormones. To me, if they haven't done the least in getting on the hormones then chances are they are looking for a sugar daddy to pay for everything and ummm no. This does not sway males from hitting up the inbox with questions and submissions for service as a Slave to me. I've told many of a straight person that to me, a hole is a hole, is a hole... so long ad they have a good shape to them & take care of themselves, what do I care if the hole belongs to men or women? I've been saying that for years and have had a guy friend that we'd just get together for some fun because one, he is married and two, his quite masculine and that's never been a turn on for me. Only thing I find attractive about most men is what's between the belly button and the kneecaps... Saying this to the gentleman of whom I speak, he ask a series of questions "If you know that, then why is it different when it comes to being your Slave?
Does a face or chest matter when it comes to greeting you at the door? There's mask and costumes for that.
Bringing your drink or food... matters that much on looks? Do you go to a restaurant and pick out your waitress?
Do you insist that only what makes you hard by sight, is the only ones able to do your laundry or clean your house?
You say that your language of love is Touch and Service, that someday you could go blind... Then what does it matter if I'm a male and not a very masculine one at that?
What is it that truly makes you happy and most likely turns you on?
He has some valid points. Sometimes I can be blinded by what I want to the point of not seeing what I need and that desire isn't always based on the appearance (though let's face it, to some extent it helps!).
So now I'm in a quandary of what it is that I'm truly able to find attractive. Feminine features goes a fuck ton of a long way but my guy friend, who is still very much a good friend even without the sex, is as stated... masculine. Like beard & mustache, decent dad bod... He's there when in the rare times I need some assistance or just to chat with a dude. So what is my true hold back? Am I being so vain that everything else is tossed away as not?
Anyways, I'm hoping that typing this up will kick the brain into drive and maybe something y'all say may help with the process.