We live in an age that alters words to keep one guessing and uncertain. Personally it's a frustrating issue for a person who is analytical and requires words to have common definitions, that share the same understanding.
I'm going to address two because one is a love of mine while the other is misunderstood to the point of causing deep psychological damage.
Whore: One who sells sexual exchange. There is to me, no greater profession than to be a whore. I trained to be a whore. I wanted nothing more than to be a whore every since I found out that people will PAY me to do what I love and study. I have a saying that I've used often with broken hearted friends "A friend when in need, is a real friend by deed." Meaning if I'm your friend, male or female, & you're hurting... I'm gonna fuck someone up for hurting you, and willingly fuck you silly. Nothing starts the healing of a broken heart like sexual release. Hurt me, beat me, fuck me like you hate me, or cry in a lovers embrace... heal my friend, it's why I'm here.
Why I'm like this: I'm 2 steps shy from nympho, sadomasochistic, and there is no feeling that I know of that is better than the ones you feel after the sex you need. I struggle with emotions so in my mind that sensation is what I see true love being. Love is such a mix of emotions that nobody can put it in words for me to understand and that to me is how sex is... all consuming, all giving, pain, pleasure, take your breath and make you scream.
I've had pleasure with 20+ in my past and regret 0. So why didn't I follow my dreams... more than the reason I'm willing to tell but this is part of it.
I'm a light germaphobe... Not knowing who they are, what I may be picking up from a complete stranger 🤢 I couldn't shut off my mind causing issues with the libido when I needed the bastard the most! My limit is extremely small but... it has to be clean! Talk about having issues that contradict each other! I'll eat your ass, swallow cum, take a pegging or cock till my ass seals shut and lick a pussy so deep the cream get wedged up my nose BUT! You best show me a recent medical analysis or wear protection! I don't want what you got. Its weird, I know but it's part of who I am. Now, I'm not the whore I wanted to be, but I'm still a whore all the same.
Which brings me to the next word:
Worthless: to have no value or use.
I hear this being used out of proper understanding... I feel like I'm worthless, he/she makes me feel like I'm worthless.
Dirt, still has value and is still useful.
Trash, degrades into dirt thus once again has value because we grow crops from dirt to feed ourselves and others.
The person who calls you worthless is not saying you are without value, they are saying they can not afford you. Why? Because they tried you and found that your value is most likely higher than theirs. If you've done your part, they understood without knowing why; that they can not live up to their words so they deflect the blame of their own inability and tear at your self-esteem to hide your very value from yourself. In doing so, you become without purpose fulfilling the role in yourself to designate a sensation of "worthlessness."
If you are ghosted, it's not that you are worthless but their character is beneath yours, thus making you of more value than they can afford.
If you struggle with issues, yes you need to get your shit together because you have a value and you are SooOooOo underselling yourself. If you can not get your shit together, find another way to fulfill your purpose. I couldn't be the whore I wanted to be so instead I was groomed to be a Master that can please any Slave without fearing for my own ego stroke. General put: I do whatever it takes to get that cream out of you, hence I'm a bi-sexual, sadomasochist, switch. I'll listen so I can help point you in a direction of self discovery, healing and growth. I'll teach that you might fulfill your purpose all of which requires you to kneel at my feet. I came to you for a reason, you came to me for a reason also. If I'm not teaching I'm learning. If I'm not learning, I'm teaching and if you're too fukn stubborn I'll let you think you are teaching me so I can guide you to what you need to learn, all the while, thanking you for teaching me.
Why?
To me there are those who sell themselves to high, those who sell too low but your worth is up to you to determine. Who accepts your worth and provides the cost of your worth is fukn hard to find cuz you are 1 in billions of other distractions but do not ever mistake... you have not ever been, you are not now, nor will you ever be "Worthless."
Know your value, know your use and be used for it willingly. A whore sells themselves, not just sexually, thus a whore is of immense value to me. A Master is the realm wherein I get to be that whore within the restraints set upon me due to my own mind. Be who and what you are, realign your reality, you've lived in an altered one for to long.
You'll find it's rather gratifying as well as illuminating.
Max
