This is the tough part. For quite a while I didn't know that the mild depression I feel after playing with my Dom had a name. I've been able to handle it better now that I know I'm not crazy for feeling this way.
To be fair to Him, I am not the best communicator about this part of the cycle. I did manage to tell Him once that being with Him comes with highs and lows, but I didn't say anything more about it. It's not a weight I want Him to carry. Whether in the vanilla world or our unique dynamic, I manage my own emotions, alone. This is a method developed in childhood so it's harder to overcome.
It's the strangest thing to want to be held when I'm feeling low and yet I'm absolutely terrified of that kind of affection when I'm going through it. Instead, I stay quiet and keep my distance, gving Him space without Him ever being aware of it.
Just part of the cycle...these feelings will pass when I level out.