This weekend was amazing I got a lot of one on one time with my fiance which can be difficult with his long work hours on weekdays and our living situation. I wouldn't trade the time in the world. That being said today I feel like I was hit by a Mac truck.
I was physically exhausted by the time we got home Saturday and Sunday (not that it takes much I wake up tired most days) and today despite resting I still feel like the living dead. My entire body hurts from the fibromyalgia....I feel bad that tonight is going to make night 3 of no sex.
It's not a lack of want to, I'm horny as hell but it's a lack in my bodies ability to cooperate. He always reassures me he's not mad and that it's not my fault and all he wants to do is take the chronic pain away from me. I love him so much for that, but the guilts still there.
This is when I start to feel like I'm not enough, that he deserves better. Add on that I recently threw my need to submit to him at him after almost 2 years together I feel like I'm just idk.... Chronic pain, depression, anxiety they're all kicking my ass right now and unfortunately he's at work so I can't even crawl into his arms for comfort right now.
