Today has been a stressful day. Searching for a house is a pain especially with breed restrictions (Which I find ridiculous). Found out late last night after checking online that my disability case had been denied again, thankfully I have a lawyer taking over but Ive been down this route before and I'm just wondering if it's ever going to happen. I want to be more help financially but I've tried going back to work and it never lasts long my body just shuts down on me. I miss working, I miss being able to go to the gym 5 days a week, I miss being able to hang out with friends without paying for it later....
Im grateful I have a supportive Fiance who loves me through it all. He tells me all the time I do help by what I do at home even if some days its a lot less than others. I know he doesnt see me as any less because of any of this, but it's hard not to see myself that way. He never knew me before the fibromyalgia, depression and anxiety. He's only ever known this version of me, I still miss the part of me I lost to this stupid condition.
My brain is on overload, my emotions are haywire and I just needed a place that I could ramble without worrying my friends and family because they'll never see it here.
