Well, and not a lot of people know this about me, I spent 12 months nursing my wife of 30 years of Cancer - good days but more often bad days, she then succumbed to the illness and died 2 years ago, (last week). This was also after 3 years of turmoil as major issues caused major heart ache in the family (smashed bones, deaths abroad), each new year we committed that the next would be better...then Covid, my late wife was a registered nurse and I am glad that she did not have to live through it - as a nurse she would have been torn between wanting to work and the disease that was wracking her body.
Although I have only touched on the issues that occurred in my family group - and some people would have slipped into depression possible gone down the alcohol/drugs route, legal and illegal. I decided not to let the world continue to hold me down and after a period of time like a butterfly I emerged form my cocoon. My self reflection, (I tend to do that a lot), I realised who and where I was on my life journey - I acknowledged that for 30 years I have been repressed as my dominant character, (some may have called it a form of domestic/emotional abuse), I have 'failed' to live up to my parents hope of me becoming a professional sportsperson, (I had my chances but remained loyal).
All these knock backs have led me to who I am today, they have given my empathy, respect of others and love to give. Yes I can look back and imagine I could have done something different - but that will not change anything. I am happy and secure in my knowledge now that I am a gentleman Dom, a name I find amusing as I simply see me as Floradragon, the gentleman Dom has been used to describe me by a people, (I can hear roaming wild growling). I love the banter with other people and relish the 'discussions' with instas - mind you they normally block me.
So
Life will go on, you can let it bring you down or you can grab it and run with it. I sincerely hope you grab it and run with it - I am sure in the near future you will be fulfilled.
All the best.
Floradragon