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It’s only a slip if you’ve lost your grip but it’s not a grip if you keep on slippin’.

Him

8 months ago. Sunday, May 11, 2025 at 5:02 PM

I was a house abandoned in winter,

shutters slammed shut by time,

walls echoing with the wind’s hollow questions.

Even the dust had grown tired of waiting—

it settled like silence on everything I once was.

 


My heart,

a locked room beneath the floorboards,

fed only on echoes and imagined warmth,

learned to live without sunlight,

drank shadow from cupped hands.

 


I taught myself to stop reaching.

To love the ache of emptiness

like a bruise that proves you’re still here.

I watched the world in grayscale,

found meaning in quiet decay.

 


Then—

a warmth not summoned

stepped into the ruins.

Not with fire,

but with steady hands

and eyes that saw not what was broken,

but what could still bloom.

 


He did not fling open the doors.

He waited by them.

Spoke with the patience of roots

growing unseen beneath frost.

And the ice began to drip,

to speak,

to sing.

 


The house creaked with memory,

but also with hope.

My ribs, once a cage,

became a garden trellis,

and my heart—

it pressed upward, green and trembling.

 


He brings the sky with him.

Not a blinding noon,

but the kind of light that knows

how to touch the most bruised petals

without asking them to open too soon.

 


And I—

once starved—

have learned the taste of morning again.

It is not sweetness.

It is sustenance.

It is him.

8 months ago. Friday, May 9, 2025 at 10:19 AM

It’s getting closer and closer to time to move in with Daddy. We’ve been working on our to do lists. He decided he wanted to get new carpet in the bedrooms my son will be in (he’s getting 2, one for sleeping and the other as a gaming room), and the spare room upstairs, so that’s happening next week. He cleaned out both closets in the master bedroom and put new shelving in them. I scrubbed the giant shower last weekend because well, he’s a bachelor and doesn’t really do deep cleaning. We got rid of the furniture in the downstairs bedroom that he’s going to make his new office so I can have the upstairs office.

This weekend we are doing the dreaded meet the parents ritual because both mine and his are complaining that we’re moving in together and they haven’t met us 🙄 at our ages, 48 me and 54 him, we don’t need our parents approval but whatever lol. We also got me added to the water bill and wrote up an affidavit saying we live together to then get notarized so I can have my ID changed and enroll kiddo in the new school. I packed up some things I don’t need between now and the actual move.

 

As for the actual moving date, well I paid the rent up until August so we have plenty of time. My landlord was nice and instead of charging me 35% of the remaining lease he just said he’d keep my deposit. Kiddos school ends May 22 and he goes to his Dads for 2 weeks and I figure I’ll move our essentials during that time. We will be mostly living with Daddy and coming to my place to get the stuff sorted, have a moving sale and finally have the movers get the furniture and stuff that we’re keeping. 

And I am starting my new job on the 19th which complicates things for me as far as free time to pack but I’m thrilled that I found a job in his area so fast. I will be doing training for a month in a different area but then I’ll be at our local office by the end of June.

Dynamic wise, things are going great. I feel very fortunate to be his girl, and he says the same. We are peas in a pod and I am so excited to know that soon I’ll be in service to him 24/7. Although our dynamic doesn’t look like what a lot of people imagine 24/7 as being. We are organic, we don’t have a lot of protocols and rules because that shit is tedious. I obey him, I strive to please him, and that’s about it, although it’s way more complicated.

8 months ago. Monday, April 28, 2025 at 10:46 AM

Well, maybe a little bit of a tree.

8 months ago. Thursday, April 24, 2025 at 1:59 PM

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Yes. Another one.

8 months ago. Thursday, April 24, 2025 at 10:45 AM

I have noticed something new in me lately, I am starting to find joy in little everyday things. A lot of that joy is coming from being of service to my Daddy. I highly enjoy going to the grocery store to pick out the perfect ingredients for the perfect meal, I am enjoying taking care of myself physically because it’s important to him, I enjoy remembering to have little things at my house that he likes, such as his favorite chewing gum. The list could go for a while.

 

For several years before Daddy, I had lost all joy in those things. I wouldn’t go to the store, I’d instacart, I wouldn’t cook anymore, I would DoorDash, I wouldn’t exercise or even pay attention to my diet, and for heaven’s sake sometimes I wouldn’t even wash my hair or shave my legs. Yes, I was with my former but he never acted like it mattered to him, thus it didn’t matter to me. 


The result of being with Daddy is a much brighter and happier me. My son has noticed, my mother noticed, and I notice too. This is proof of what happens when you’re in a healthy dynamic, the submissive grows and thrives in ways that no one can predict.

I am grateful every single day for this man, and I truly feel like the luckiest girl in the world. 

9 months ago. Monday, April 21, 2025 at 6:55 AM

Daddy and I spent the whole of our time together Saturday and Sunday discussing life things (and lots of cuddles). We looked around at properties in my area, checked out interest rates, and determined that it’s the best financial decision for my son and I to move in with him. We had to decide for sure relatively soon because my son is starting high school this fall and we don’t want to move him after he starts.

So, that’s the plan! We are going to live in his current home for the next 4-5 years, build more equity and save then most likely buy property to build our forever home on. 

I have a job interview on Tuesday with an organization that just happens to be hiring both in my town and Daddy’s so I’ll likely already have a job there. It will mean having a commute for a while but it isn’t forever. 

 

Our target date is July! That’s just 11 weeks and I’m sure it will go by incredibly fast. I’m so happy to have a plan in place and so lucky to be with a man who plans AND takes action. 

9 months ago. Saturday, April 19, 2025 at 7:22 AM

My Daddy got sick on Monday. It’s just a cold but he was running a fever until Thursday, so we had to forego our Wednesday and Friday time together. He has to drive his new motorcycle to the dealership for the 600 mile oil change and then he will be coming straight to my place. We are going to take it easy and just cuddle, cook together and have our long insightful talks.

Next weekend is a kid free weekend, and I am going to get all the make-up kink I can because we have only had 1 day alone together this month. It’s been so hard to be apart so much, but hopefully now everything will go back to our regularly scheduled programming. 

I love and adore this man in so many ways. No one in my entire life has ever taken such good care of me. He doesn’t only take care of me though, he also empowers me and makes sure I am his strong badass girl when I need to be. I love that duality, and he also experiences it. He says no one has ever loved him the way he needed to be loved but I fit him just right, He appreciates that he can be vulnerable with me and still feel respected, supported, and valued. 

I can’t imagine a day without him in my life and I already wish we were living together. We’re doing everything we can to hold off on that so we don’t put too much strain on us with moving around. It will definitely not be sooner than July, but preferably somewhere around October. It just depends on how fast he sells his house. So we will see! 

9 months ago. Friday, April 18, 2025 at 11:04 AM

9 months ago. Thursday, April 17, 2025 at 7:50 AM

Trust is the heartbeat of any healthy D/s relationship. Unlike surface-level power plays, true D/s is an intimate, psychological bond built on vulnerability, communication, and profound mutual respect. At its core, it’s not about control for control’s sake—it’s about surrender with safety, and power held with care.

For the Dominant, trust begins with consistency, clarity, and emotional intelligence. A Dominant leads with intention, never with ego. They create the structure the submissive can relax into—a container for growth, pleasure, and freedom. A trustworthy Dominant listens deeply, respects limits, and checks in regularly. Their strength lies not in force, but in their ability to remain grounded and attuned.

For the submissive, trust is born from courageous vulnerability. To kneel, to obey, to surrender—these acts are not weakness. They are empowered expressions of choice. A submissive opens themselves fully, offering their mind and body with the knowledge they will be held, not harmed. Their devotion is sacred, and in return, they flourish in the safety of being truly seen.

This bond fosters a unique form of love. Not passive or performative, but active, layered, and alive. Rituals, scenes, aftercare—all become sacred acts that deepen emotional intimacy and strengthen the connection. Trust allows both partners to shed masks and step fully into their roles with confidence.

When nurtured with honesty and care, D/s is a space where both partners are empowered. The Dominant thrives in guiding, protecting, and adoring. The submissive thrives in expressing, releasing, and being cherished. It’s a dance of control and release, power and surrender. But at its heart, it’s a shared truth:

I trust you to hold my soul with your hands, and you trust me to place it there.

9 months ago. Wednesday, April 16, 2025 at 4:55 PM

In a D/s dynamic, vulnerability is not weakness—it is the gateway to transcendence. It’s what separates a scene from performance and turns it into profound psychological and emotional intimacy. Vulnerability is the act of showing your truest, rawest self and being held—sometimes literally, sometimes emotionally—through that exposure. In D/s, this goes both ways: a submissive must trust enough to surrender, and a Dominant must be attuned enough to guide and protect that surrender.


For the submissive, allowing oneself to be “undone” in front of a Dominant is a radical act of trust. It’s saying: “Here I am, unmasked, unguarded—do with me what you will.” That moment of relinquishment—of body, of control, of ego—can be spiritually intimate. For the Dominant, the vulnerability lies in responsibility, in wielding power with care, in reading nonverbal cues, in holding space for transformation. It’s not just control—it’s stewardship.


Now, when a Dominant puts a submissive in a scene that involves humiliation, degradation, or objectification, it’s easy for outsiders to misunderstand that as inherently harmful. But the key distinction is consent and intent. What looks demeaning from the outside is, in reality, often empowering to the submissive. It’s a chosen narrative. A sub might find deep catharsis in being stripped of persona, ego, and societal expectations, and being reduced—momentarily—to raw desire or vulnerability. In that space, the humiliation isn’t actual shame; it’s a ritual, a performance, a shedding of roles.

 

It isn’t about what’s being done. It’s about why and with whom.

When done with care, aftercare, and connection, these experiences forge bonds that are intense and soul-deep. Because there’s no pretending in a scene like that. The Dominant sees the submissive’s darkest places and doesn’t turn away. And that is love—maybe not soft, but real.

 

So what might look degrading, to those within the dynamic, is often the most sacred act of all: the freedom to be fully known—and still desired.