I’ve been in a few dynamics but I’ve never been with a Daddy type, in fact, I avoided them. I didn’t avoid because I thought anything bad about it, I avoided because I didn’t think that being treated lovingly was something meant for me. Any man I’ve ever been with had nothing but coldness, except for one that was nice and more like a kinky best friend. I was afraid of having a Daddy because I didn’t want to get accustomed to being treated lovingly only to have it taken away, better to do without than to experience the loss. I always felt a level of jealousy of girls that had a Daddy but I’d cover it with disdain, trying to hide from myself, not admitting I wanted to be loved out of fear of that love being taken away or
never given love in the first place.
When I met my Master, he didn’t say he was a Daddy too, only a sadist ❤️🔥 I do love a nice cold sadist, but I never knew that it didn’t have to be that way all the time. About three months in I made an offhand teasing comment and said that he could force me to call him Daddy. He said I wouldn’t mind you calling me Daddy, and from that moment on I was interested. I don’t really remember what happened to make me feel comfortable with it but I did start calling him Daddy, and it didn’t feel too bad at all. Not only did I start calling him Daddy but he started showing me what having a Daddy means. He showed me what being cherished, important, and unconditionally loved is. It brought out my playful side and most importantly my loving side. Today, the love between Daddy and I has become something I’ve never felt before, not even from my Father. It took Daddy months to convince me that this wasn’t a trick, and that it’s not something he gave me to take away later out of cruelty. When my abandonment issues cropped up, just about daily, he would say
“Little girl, Daddy always comes back.”
Daddy is still a sadist and I am still a masochist, and when Master comes out we play as hard as possible. Afterwards though, Daddy does come back, and Daddy makes his girl feel loved, valued, seen, and heard. I never imagined that a D/s dynamic could be so multifaceted, and I finally believe that
I’m worthy of love.
Daddy, thank you for being my shelter, thank you for allowing me to love and loving me in return. Your Ownership is whole and complete, and for the first time in my life, I’m proud to be owned. The words “I love you Daddy” in no way encompass what I feel for you. You are the air I breathe, you are the light in our dark, and
Daddy always come back.