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Learning to be a true slave

its journey into slavery
4 years ago. October 7, 2020 at 12:33 AM

it has been getting more and more used to the silence its mentor imposes upon it. Each night in its cell stretches on for what seems like an eternity. In the beginning of the night, tied in tight chains and unable to lay down, its brain fights the pain but normally, it has its mantras to keep it company. Last night it was told complete silence, not even mantras. 

t obeyed but what had become affirming in the dark was gone and the first hours were a struggle, its brain trying to make sense of the pain, isolation and sensory deprivation...its a slave, this is its home...tried to creep in over and over in its subconscious mind...but it never once spoke the words....just deep dark silence. 

And then it slept...or did it? dreams and fantasies came. The fantasies become more real...he said to it, when the fantasies feel real you are sleeping...they feel real. They are extreme to say the least. its deepest darkest fantasies of being...a gimp?...coming true. having everything restricted, every body function, even the food and water taken over for it by machines...kept in suspended animation until its someday Master wants to use its holes or punish its body. 

No thoughts enter of politics or troubles in life, only peace and darkness and suffering in stillness as it goes further down the hole...

 

 

SirsBabyDoll​(sub female){Pizza+☕} - I do not mean to be rude nor do I wish to question your kink or degrade it but I have a question.

Where is YOUR line? Where do you draw the line between enslavement and abuse? I am not a slave and personally struggle with understanding the drive to be one so I ask only to gain a greater understanding.
4 years ago
nina mariposa​(sub female) - Hi, There are some things about being a slave that it still does not totally understand, the psychology behind it is deep, but it is NOT being abused. it wanted this, it came up with much of what it is experiencing with the guidance of its mentor, who helps to control what it experiences and monitors it to be sure it is well.

In going through this experience it has given it what it craves...to be nothing, to be outside of the world in a meditative state, being free to be who it is in my mind. Many times like today, for example, it spends the day in mind numbing meetings and arguing for the better treatment of its students. it acts normal and it gets a headache from all of the stress...and all it thinks about is getting back into that silent space in the dark where it is safe.

Abuse would be forced on it, would be Him making me do these things against its will...when every suggestion was what it came up with and He just guided and made some subtle changes.

Someday it would love to find an owner of its own. Somebody who would take me further, maybe be able to escape from the real (pretty horrible world right now) world and live to please Him in whatever he wanted. There's nothing more that it wants in this world and it is getting to live a little bit of that now.

It hope this helps. it is a mature and intelligent woman and this is what it desires.
4 years ago
SirsBabyDoll​(sub female){Pizza+☕} - Thank you for your response. I hope you can find the peace you crave.
4 years ago

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