So, this is my second post for the day.
Disclaimer *Cannabis is being used in the production of this blog*
There is freedom in being yourself. Freedom in accepting what it is you love in life.
I just read a blog in which a man proclaimed his love of his kink. It was a small piece of what BDSM is, in a very isolated region of where interest lies. But he was able to stand proudly and proclaim what it is he has enjoyment and what he loves. Regardless of its popularity, it's part of him.
I may not have interest in his kink, but I can respect someone for standing up unabashedly for what they love. That takes guts. It takes fortitude that few people have, especially knowing that it is not widely practiced.
I want to live my life with that unabashed love and passion. I want to celebrate all of the things that I love.
Part of my problem is that my list of "have experienced" is next to nothing. While my list of "to be tried" extends beyond my arm. In part I want everything because I've tried next to nothing. I still have no idea how I will truly react in any situation.
I have found myself in a position where I have chosen to isolate myself, although I find out tomorrow about how my future will look. A decision will be made and my future sealed. Of course where I wound up here is because of the choices of my past. They always have consequences.
I had a friend of mine from work once tell me "Ask yourself, if I do this what will be the consequences 3 years, 5 years, 10 years down the road before you take action". The thing is I have witnessed that statement come true in a multitude of ways in my life. Most of them are negative now because my choices reflected poor decision making. They were self gratifying in the moment but had monumental impact in the long run.
The thing is I've made mistakes that have caused all sorts of torment, and not the fun kind.
I've owned up to my past and I have been able to put it behind me finally. That being said as we move forward we all evolve. So a friend from 6 months past might now after working through some things might be a much closer fit than you imagined. But every opportunity has to begin with a choice.
The thing is I've realized that no matter what it's not your decision to make. You can't make any choice for any person unless they have put that responsibility on your shoulders with consent, negotiation, and all the other important aspects of developing a dynamic that could withstand the test of time.
(If you happen to be reading this and have no idea what proper aspects to consider when beginning an interaction with someone please send me a message and we can have a discussion)
One thing a very dear friend once told me " If someone is right for you today, they will be right for you years from now" I believe she is correct, in that if someone who is right for you and is truly meant to be in your life then regardless of when you actually get to physically see them if that happens to be years in the future it will occur because it was meant to happen.
The thing is we can't live in the future. We only have the present and today in which we can live. We just need to do our best to be honest, authenticate and open about who we are, and what we love.
Hope you all have a wonderful day
