You said "That must have really impacted you deeply."
The thing was it was beautiful. It was a song that had wonderful lyrics and a great melody. It was wonderful. But I know you. I saw you. I heard the words you spoke. I knew because of how you spoke. This was trauma. This was immense damage. As I listened to the song I saw you shift, uncomfortable. I saw you struggle and strain.
I couldn't help but think over what I know about your history. I couldn't help but imagine what might have been going on the first and last time you listened to that song. I know your history, but I don't know the specific details. But I saw you fighting your demons. I saw you warring against the history your body knew. The experience that you must have felt. The way your mind and heart must have been ripped apart. I couldn't help but imagine the different horrific sensations that may have occured.
But I also witnessed a change in you. Halfway through the song I saw you shift and turn your eyes directly onto me. I saw you begin to conquer your history by allowing a new memory to overlap the old one. It didn't take anything on my part. Just the past nearly 2 years of showing up. Being consistent. Patient. Understanding. I saw you turn your focus from the past to the present, and you stopped straining. You focused solely on me.
The thing is as Dominants we can't change history. We can't remove the pain and suffering that anyone has experienced. We can't go back in time and stop harm or trauma. But what We do is give the present and the future hope. We give the opportunity to create something new from those old damaged spaces.
When you care about the charge under your domain you do all you can to work at creating safe space where healing, growth and transformation can occur.
I am a man incapable of anything beyond touching the surface. When I reach my hand out, when it makes contact with you it will only ever touch the briefest layer of who you are. My words may be able to sink into your mind and heart but even those still only impact the surface of those spaces.
The thing is though I was created for a purpose. I have been blessed since the day I was born. I hit the genetic lottery of being "ridiculously average" which in fact is beyond average. I dont have any rare conditions. I haven't even been sick in years. My body doesnt suffer from paralysis, my lungs work exceptionally well, my body has aches and pains but I dont have significant problems that I can say I suffer because of >>> this. My existence has been one of blessings, and I can recount innumerable times where things just resolved themselves. Not because I did anything. Not because I was capable of changing the situation. When I had a need the situation presented itself such that that need was met. One way or another.
As I walk my journey I have realized, I do not need to do, be or attempt anything. I simply need to exist. My existence will allow for the miracles and change I desire.
I didn't set a scene. I didn't say "Today I will heal you." I simply sat and listened to a song with you. I didnt have to do more than that because of what we have been building together. I didnt have to work hard at that moment because I had laid the groundwork every single day. For years. And so when that moment came and went I didnt even realize what had occured. I saw. I heard and as I cried over the pain I knew you endured there was healing.
I am who I am meant to be. I am a man without power, except that which has been given to me. I am a man without strength, except that which I have earned. I am a man without wisdom, except that which I have gained through experience, patience and observation. I am a man without knowledge, but I see and understand when it is right. I am a man without any ability, except what I have trained and been blessed with. I am a man without authority, except that which has been granted me.
As we exist our experiences become ingrained into who we are. Positive or negative those things become part of what perceived life is. They become embedded into our being. I am going to do nothing except what I was put on this earth to do. I will fulfill my purpose. When I reach out, when I touch you it will not be my hand. It will be a hand guided by divine authority. It will be a hand, a word, a sensation, an experience that reaches beyond the surface. It will reach into the depths of who you are and miraculous change and healing will occur. It will transform you. You will be reborn, cleansed and made whole. I won't do anything because I am not capable of reaching past the surface, but as an emissary. As a vassal. As a servant of the One who created all I will be the conduit in which cleansing, healing and rebirth will be granted because you are of my domain. I have been given authority over you. By your choice to serve, by the grace of the Almighty, by the power of giving up your control to my guidance I will make a change in your life unlike anything seen before.
To all those that read my words today this message is not for you. It is meant for only one. The one who has chosen to serve me. While I appreciate your time in reading what I have written, and as I hope these words will provide change in your life as you walk your journey they are not intended for you. I do hope that all who read this though end up finding their path. The path they were meant to walk. Know that when you align with where you are meant to be, great and powerful things will occur.
Mstr J
