Good Evening Cage friends,
Tonight I wanted to take a moment and speak about an instance that occured during Mikayla's trip. This is specific to her because as much as I was present and apart of the experience W/we had two vastly different roles in the experience.
In many ways I was utterly helpless and beyond "existing next to her" I wasn't very able to do "anything." Now that is both true and not true.
The fact of the matter is that many times and moments will occur when as a Dominant there isnt anything you can do but be present, exist and try to soothe the discomfort your property feels or is experiencing. It's akin to sitting next to someone while they vomit. Rubbing their back and just being there. It doesn't *DO* much, but at the same time it offers comfort and support. It tells them I am beside you, I care, I am here and I am hoping for a speedy recovery that brings relief.
So let me tell you a story.
It was one of the most gorgeous days W/we had experienced while in Florida. It was an absolute perfect beach day and as W/we woke up and had coffee (in the absolute best mugs possible) W/we sat in some lounge chairs that were put out for the cottage goers to enjoy. W/we drank our coffee nestled in each other's arms and pondered what the day might have in store. Little did W/we know that my decision to start O/our perfect day with a paddle on the ocean kayaks would be a bit more "exciting" than W/we bargained for.
So the cottage that W/we stayed at before O/our cruise had these ocean kayaks that could be used by the guests. Given the weather and that W/we only had one day to really spend at the cottage I made the decision that in the morning W/we would go out for a paddle and that when W/we got back W/we would head off to the beach. So Mikayla requested that I attend to the kayaks and ensure "no spiders were hidden" as she set about preparing the necessary items for the beach and getting prepared for the next stage of the trip.
I walked down the docks and flipped over both kayaks making sure no spiders were anywhere. Although I should have been more thorough in my investigation. But as W/we dropped off all of the essential items and carried the bare minimum on U/us we plopped the kayaks into the water and I helped her get into her kayak and she helped me get into mine after. And W/we set out.
W/we paddled and began by going with the flow of the waves, allowing O/ourselves to be pushed and in the far off distance made a determination to see if W/we could make it to the causeway. W/we had amazing conversation and a lovely time looking at the houses on the edge of the water. Admiring the structure and design of quite a few extravagant homes. Talking plans, ideas, concepts of what W/we liked and didnt like about the form of the structures.
At one point I spotted a little alcove of an inlet and it was providence that made me call out, "Hey lets check that out!" So we paddled into the space between the homes and looked around enjoying the view until Mikayla spotted what was either an alligator chilling or some driftwood. W/we werent going to venture close enough to find out and immediately high tailed it out of there.
But this is where everything went absolutely sideways. As W/we exited the inlet and were about to begin O/our journey forward towards the causeway it happened that Mikayla capsized. Fortunately W/we didnt stray far enough from the shore and W/we emptied the water out of kayak and attempted to go on O/our way again. Almost immediately she capsized again. At this point concern was beginning to mount. After she capsized once more W/we swapped kayaks and I immediately took a dunk in the water. Something had gone horribly wrong and the kayak was no longer functioning.
W/we got Mikayla to the shore and I went back through the inlet to check to see if it would be possible to get access to the road from there. Fortune had it that W/we just needed to trespass through some private property to get out, but the roadway was right there. So I went back and one last time W/we tried to just get Mikayla back through the inlet but she could not go more than a few yards before she fell back into the water. Stress had been mounting and at one moment when she capsized into seaweed surrounded by all of the potential hazards she had been warning and educating me about (deadly water snakes because it was their perfect hideout) she called "Red, red, red"
Now, I am immensely grateful for this experience. Why? Because it taught U/us important lessons about who W/we each are. It gave me an opportunity to show her how I handle a crisis and in what ways W/we manage stress, fear, being overwhelmed and terror. When Mikayla fell into the seaweed and terror had taken hold of her the most important thing I could do was help U/us take a step back and put her back onto solid ground. Fortunately there were a set of stairs that W/we managed to get her safely to, out of the water, out of danger and immediately she was able to calm. Because I had U/us. I created a plan, and no matter how long it would take I was going to solve this.
As I paddled away I realized that even if I got back W/we would still have to deal with the kayak so I turned back around and told her I would get the kayak out of the water. I attempted to push the kayak through the inlet and as much as I was making progress Mikayla had a much brighter idea and using her hair tie secured the kayak to the back of mine. I paddled through the inlet and when I reached the edge of the shore as I attempted to lift the kayak out of the water I realized it was beyond my ability. It was so weighed down I could barely budge the thing. I went back down the edge of the inlet and I saw a black plug at the bottom of the kayak and I felt like a fool. I knew what had happened. I immediately opened the plug and allowed the kayak to drain all of the water that had infiltrated the vessel. As the weight lessened as the water released I turned the kayak upside down as I lifted it out of the water and with absolute horror I saw the hole that had caused U/us all this grief.
At this point Mikayla had managed to get herself through the backyard of the home she had been stranded behind and met up with me as I was lifting the kayak out of the water. When understanding dawned on both of U/us W/we were immensely grateful for all the ways W/we had been cared for. That this failed right where W/we had a chance to get out, that despite the danger W/we had unknowingly been in W/we were safe and made it through. W/we dragged the damaged kayak through the yard and out onto the street and roadway. I promised her I would be back and I set off to paddle against the ocean waves to get U/us back to the rest of our trip.
This was an amazing opportunity for both of U/us. It proved to me that my slave knows herself well enough that she will call her safe word when she goes beyond her limit. It showed me how she handles fear. How she manages herself in a crisis. How she responds to uncertain circumstance. How she takes direction and listens when things arent going as planned. It showed me a great deal the quality of her character, it allowed me to see her in the truest sense of who she is. It bonded U/us deeply in that moment of adversity and in many ways it strengthened her understanding and trust in me. I proved my mettle in how I managed a crisis. It showed my ability to remain calm despite all things going wrong. It was an absolute blessing in disguise and yet it didn't stop there. (Although I may leave that portion of the story up to Mikayla to tell)
Needless to say when I got back to the dock my slave was already waiting for me there. Waving me down, showing me she was safe. That W/we had survived and managed O/our ordeal. From there W/we got all things back where they belonged and even had a chance to bump into the owner of the cottages to inform them of what had happened. When all was said and done, W/we had grown in O/our relationship and dynamic. W/we laughed and smiled about how W/we were cared for, protected, and looked after. How all things just worked out exactly as they needed to. Then W/we took off to enjoy an amazing day at the beach.
I think one of the most important things about this experience is that despite the fact I couldn't stop Mikayla from falling into the water, despite the fact I couldnt keep her fear at bay, despite the fact I couldn't stop her being overwhelmed I could do something. I helped her take a step back and get onto solid ground. I returned her to safety and then sorted the mess. But even still when she approached me with a better solution I was receptive enough to accept her brilliant solution. I was able to adapt my plan with a part of her execution that made moving the kayak much easier and simpler. It was part collaboration. W/we are much better together each fulfilling O/our role in O/out dynamic. W/we fit and work together very well. It is essential for U/us and how W/we operate that each individual while talented and whole and happy within who W/we are still bolsters and makes one another more complete. I can accomplish much more because of the support of my slave, and she is made much stronger because of my presence. It is exactly how it should be for U/us.
To those that read my words today I hope Y/you find inspiration. I hope Y/you find success on Y/your journey whatever that may look like for Y/you.
Mstr J
