Good day Cage friends,
It has been a hot minute, but as life happens so does the ebb and flow of activity. Right now in my life things are moving at a tortoises speed. I have so many goals and desires for my future life and where I am going. I have so many ideas for what I wish could happen right now but it seems that patience is absolutely required as nothing will be accomplished in a day.
I find that to be really effective it is good to set short term, medium term and long term goals.
I find for myself the long term goals tend to set the medium and short term goals. Take for example my desire to set myself on stable financial ground. That is a long term goal. Now I dont really have a date imagined for when I will be free of my debt but I orchestrate a check in every 2 weeks and set plans in short/medium bursts for what needs to happen with my money today and tomorrow and the days my bills are required to be paid. Then I get to make decisions in the moment like when my co worker makes a choice to go for lunch at Popeyes and I get to decide if the gratitude of a meal is worth the price. Although thats a slightly poor example because of another reason which I will expand on a little lower.
But I currently have 5 major countdowns that exist in my life. I have 162 days, 70 days, 12 or 13 days and then *unknown*.
Each countdown gives stability and clarity because there is an end date. Sometimes its the hopes of reaching certain ability by certain time. Sometimes its just simply making it to that day consistently. I created the Me Project sometime ago and set the timeline for 365+1 days. I know I can math but the idea is to participate for a full year and one day, and I am writing in my own personal journal focusing on my growth with intention. There isn't a I want to see this specific result. Its more so about documentation and just keeping and finding the time each day to write a little and expand my mind, heart, spirit in whatever way I am lacking that day. I only have 162 days remaining until I have accomplished this project.
I have 70 days until my girl is in my arms. Just 10 more weeks. I am very excited for this chance because it will be the closest thing to real life. Plus I find there is a difference in commanding in your space vs outside your space. I will get to organize and set plans for real life. Develop routines in my home. I get to settle into life with my slave. This will be a new challenge and test of my skill and ability but one that both of U/us are excited and ready to jump into.
Now I have also made the choice to participate in Ramadan this year and because it follows the lunar calendar it could end May 1st or 2nd depending. Which means I have 12 or 13 days remaining in my fasting. I had set a goal of trying to reach a new threshold of below 180 pounds and to master my handstand by the end of Ramadan. I did not decide to participate based upon religious reasons, but I am trying to redefine my relationship with food, to learn discipline in my life, to help improve my physical health and to support my loved ones. Last year I started halfway through and finished 14 days, but this year I wanted to finish the entire month. So it wasnt just a financial reason I declined joining my partner in lunch, despite the fact I adore Popeyes and haven't had their food in many months. I still have another 3 hours until my fast is over and I am ready and excited to be able to enjoy my iftar this evening. It has helped me find more joy in the food I eat, and a deeper appreciation for how readily available things are in a first world country.
But the reason I really wanted to make this post today is because of the goals that W/we set in life that dont have *end dates* to them. I am still in the process of getting divorced, and as it stands I am waiting for paperwork to get processed to continue. I was told it could be 1 or 2 weeks and yet that was a week or two ago now. Time marches forward always and it seems to slip away faster than you realize. But I have been finding myself unsettled and anxious just a little lately. It has been impacting my mood and ability to participate actively. When we have goals that hold unknown timelines with uncertainty it can be very hard to navigate. You cant set a plan because things could unfold today in the next hour or it could still be weeks/months away. Its just harder to manage. This is an area where I have to let go and exist here right now. I have to be mindful of where I am and not rush. Grow patience through the trial of unknown and uncertain. It isnt easy but its worth the effort to develop the trait.
I am very excited for what the future holds and I am ready to embrace today and take what opportunity presents itself. I am ready to take action but also exhibit patience so that I make the right decision at the right time. I am not rushing anything so as to protect my domain and the future I am building.
I wish Y/you all well on the journey of Y/your life and that there is prosperity in the areas Y/you walk. Have a wonderful day.
Mstr J
