Good early morning Cage friends,
It has been quite some time since I have poked My head out of hibernation. I haven't been gone as I have been checking in and reading the thoughts and experiences of the community but I hadn't felt led to share this stage of My development and O/our journey. So I have been silent behind My screen, reading, enjoying life and working at building the future I desire.
Today I wanted to share some thoughts about how times change, and seasons shift.
It was actually something that I was really struggling with, as snow began to fall I lost the ability to go out and spend My time pursuing one of My favourite passions: golf. There was a span of time where the Friday I went out to play with friends and within 24 hours more than a few inches of snow hit the ground and there was an immediate swing from "you can golf" to "screw you try it now". I was struggling with the emotional fallout of handling the loss of something loved. Yes I know its a silly thing to get bent out of shape over but it began to put in the forefront of My mind the concept of seasons changing.
Now you can take it literally and think about the weather, but change in itself can be a hard thing to navigate. As much as I was dealing with the loss of being able to golf I began to think more deeply about how the season's of My life will change. And the words "There Will Come A Time...." popped right into My head.
I realized the value of what is, and learning to find acceptance and understanding that the nature of life is to move and shift. Things will improve or get worse. They will get better indefinitely or in some cases utter destruction will unfold in a single moment forever altering the rest of Y/your existence. That's a really tough pill to swallow. Who wants suffering? Who wants pain? (Okay masochists not included.) But part of finding peace and acceptance in what is means taking responsibility for O/our choices that lead U/us on that path.
Now not being able to golf for the next 6 months sucks for Me. It isnt the world ending and in the grand scale of life those are small potatoes, but it still stings because of the love I have for golf and spending My time golfing. Yet there will come a time in My life when I create the opportunity to golf year round, but that time is not now.
I had to find a way to accept the snow on the ground and shift My perspective on what stage is My life at right now, and recognize it will not always be that way. There will come a time when My slave lives with Me, but now isnt that time. There will come a time when I am free from My financial burden, but now isnt that time. There will come a time when.... Those words rang loud in My ears and I stood back and took a moment to sit in My loss and grief and then I began to refocus My gaze.
Just as when I went through My divorce I had to put intentional effort to "not allow bitterness, resentment and anger to fill My heart" here and now upon the season's change in My life I had to find a reason to become joyful and excited about this change. I had to give Myself something to look forward to, because W/we don't live in the past. I can't get back what yesterday was, but if I put effort into making today a springboard to launch Me into My future then I can find peace, acceptance and joy knowing I am building the future I desire for My household.
Now, I am excited about the prospect of turning My attention towards the steps I need to take in order to meet the goals I have set for Myself.
I set a goal nearly 4 years ago to be able to accomplish a physical feat that I haven't met yet. I can dedicate this time towards building strength and improving My physical well being. I can take the fact that I won't be spending My resources on golf to refocus on paying off My debt. This coming year I intend to be debt free by April 1st. I'm not sure if I will be able to meet that goal, but I can make intentional choices over the next 5 months to live frugally to ensure I put Myself in the best position possible to achieve that goal.
I sought out ways that I can make this "loss of golf" season one that is abundantly fruitful in helping Me achieve what is necessary to propel My life towards the ends I desire. Shifting My perspective and focus has been instrumental in turning around My emotional satisfaction. Instead of focusing on what I have lost, I am looking at what I can gain inside this new season and the ways that it can be productive for Me. It has made a night and day difference in My attitude to get up in the morning, to go to work, to spend My free time, to look for opportunity and ways to keep improving.
I know there is great suffering and loss in the world right now. I know E/everyone is fighting their own personal battles and handling their own struggles. Some situations are so dire that no amount of effort from any 1 person can change the circumstance, but I pray that Y/you will find the resolve to not give in to despair. To remain steadfast and strong despite the overwhelming challenges. The world is a broken place filled with broken people just trying their best to simply exist. Humanity is showing the worst of itself in so many ways, in so many lives and it isn't a simple thing to overcome. I pray that hope will find its way into Y/your heart and that Y/you will be renewed.
I am incapable of changing the world, but I hope I can shift and improve the immediate sphere of My influence. I hope My words will reach those who need it most, and that little by little positive change will begin to impact their lives.
To those that read My words today, I thank you. I hope Y/you find encouragement for Y/your journey and perhaps for some a single step to begin the path into healing.
Mstr J
