Good day Cage friends,
It has been a very long while since I have felt led to write something in the blogosphere. If you haven't already caught the blog written by My slave Mikayla I would suggest checking it out.
She does an exceptional job of giving scope and background and explaining where W/we are at. There are transitions and stages to life. I am sure W/we all have witnessed them for O/our own journeys. Y/you can tell when something is coming to an end, perhaps it was a friendship or relationship. Maybe it happens to be the end of a way of thinking. That too can change the stage of Y/your life.
Just recently inside all of life, Mikayla and I have been enjoying the process of being inside a dynamic. W/we have done the thrilling and exciting and nerve wracking stages of getting to know and trust one another. Putting the initial effort and trying to see is this P/person really worth the time and effort. W/we have been very blessed that W/we found one another, mesh so well and communicate in the manner W/we do.
There has been so much growth and improvement and healing inside both of U/us. But as W/we have moved through the years things have stabilized into a routine and O/our way of life. Making time for one another when O/our schedules align and trying to make the most of each moment that W/we get to share together.
Much of this life isn't necessary note worthy (at least to other people. There are moments to share and express where I am at, but a lot of what I desire to do alongside Mikayla is for her and not really for others) This is partly why I have disappeared and been "absent". I am still reading blogs and I am around but not as actively engaged with the community as I had been when I first found this site.
The thing about new stages of life and progression through adversity means that the challenges and tasks in front of Y/you tend to scale in relation to the new stage. At least this has been My experience. Just a small snapshot of what that means and how I have experienced that.
As I have moved the needle on My financial situation I have been met with challenges that require more investment to properly address those concerns. It seems like the more stable and secure financially I become the bigger the problems tend to scale to account for the levels of success I have reached. Take for instance the repairs I've needed to make on My vehicle. When I was stuck inside of debt and frustration, most of My vehicle costs were about maintenance. Now that I have moved that needle the issues with My vehicle have jumped into the "repair" category and have been scaled up. At the same time I have not had anything that was outside of My ability to handle and I am still meeting My goals within My vision and pursuit of where I desire to be financially.
As W/we navigate into these new spheres of existence with one another there was a realization that hit both of U/us hard, but in different ways. The thing is Mikayla lands home just 2 days before her 40th birthday. It will be absolutely magnificent and wonderful to celebrate with her such a milestone, and My family and I are intending a bit of a party to do this.
The thing is, there was a bit of a "hit the wall, stop and realize" kind of moment. The age gap between U/us is not massive. Its just 7 years but there is about to be a moment when My age begins with a 3 and Mikaylas age will begin with a 4. My birthday is just over 2 weeks behind her birthday and so even as W/we get to celebrate her birthday W/we will celebrate mine shortly after. This year I turn 33. There was just something that hit me differently as I realized that My slave will in fact be 40.
I recognize that health concerns become more prominent as Y/you age and the thing is I was never concerned over the difference in O/our age. But now sitting here, there is a moment that I have to breathe and take time to process "this difference." I mean there isnt anything different about her. She is exactly who she is. Nothing has changed inside of the distance between O/our ages and yet I had to pause as the realization settled over Me. Yes W/we are in fact going to be in different age brackets. When I was 29 I held no concern over the difference in O/our age. But as life changes, LIFE CHANGES.
So, I get the glorious opportunity to recognize and acknowledge the differences between U/us. Not only O/our age but who W/we are as people. Now none of this is a deterrent. I am still very invested in living life alongside Mikayla, and I am overjoyed to have her as My partner in life. But I did have to acknowledge to her (and I wanted to acknowledge to those here in the community) that even inside of a well established dynamic that it takes continued effort to navigate the changes and new stages Y/you will walk through.
There is value in pausing when Y/you encounter a shift in reality. I mean I have always known Mikayla is 7 years older than I am. That hasn't and wont change. I acknowledged and "knew" it before, but as W/we grow older together sometimes that information hits home in a different way. Now I get to do the Master man thing and prove to My slave that no matter what may come up from either side of the slash during life that she is worth My investment of time, energy, love and effort. This is one of those moments where how I respond and share with her where I am at, and how I am navigating these spaces for O/our collective benefit will go a long way in creating more trust and devotion.
The ways W/we act can build or destroy what W/we have. There must be care and consideration as well as grace as Y/you navigate changing circumstances.
Mstr J
