What's Going On?

^{when I found this site I was searching for one particular man. I didn't find him in the cage, but I did find so much knowledge which has helped me tremendously over the past couple years. About two and a half years ago I'm at this man who opened my eyes to the BDSM lifestyle in ways I never could have imagined. He told me everything I wanted to hear, his profile picture was so sexy it almost couldn't have been him, he was going to come see me... And poof he was gone. So of course I went crazy stalker psycho mode and paid for software to locate this mystery man. What I found was that this guy was an actor, and he never mentioned that to me so for sure I thought he was a catfish. But by that time I didn't give a fuck what he looked like. I had fallen in love with the man behind the words for real. After several months oh, I found him on another website and that's when I knew he wanted me to find him. That was over two years ago, and now we are so in love. I chuckle as I remember telling my mom about this super hot actor guy he says that he was starting to fall for me. My mom looked at me and said what would a guy from San Diego California, an actor, want a plain girl from Kansas 4? And I told her I had no idea why but I believe him and you know what every single thing that man has told me has been the truth from the get-go. And everything I've told him has also been the truth. The one thing he didn't tell me about was that he was an actor and that was because he says he's just a normal guy. Both of us have been through a lot of bullshit over the last 2 years in our separate lives, and we have decided 2 get a fresh start at life clear across the country in either Florida or Connecticut we haven't decided yet. The only thing is I have a 7 year old son who I will not take away from his father and I will not go without him. Right now he will not understand that if he and I move that far away, it won't take anything to get him a plane ticket back to Kansas to visit his dad whenever he is on vacation from school. But my son needs to know there is more out in the world other than Kansas and agriculture and little income for hard work. I wish I knew what to do although I still have at least till the end of the school year to figure it out because I'm not going to flip his world upside down in the middle of a school year.}