“I am going to cum no matter what, so let me prioritize your pleasure.” - Daddy
A novel concept to me. Growing up in an extremely religious and restrictive environment put me at a major disadvantage sexually. I knew how it was supposed to be/feel but for the life of me didn’t understand the hype about heterosexual sex. Why did people crave and rave about it?
Losing my virginity wasn’t a painful experience, it was interesting with little hints of pleasure. I enjoyed feeling close to him, however as I experienced more and more of it those hints of pleasure dwindled to nothing unless Mr.purple (my handy dandy vibrator lent a helping hand).So when I was ordered not to use it during sex more and more… I faked climax and pleasure ALOT. Something that I regret. It definitely wasn’t an environment focused on growing and learning together sexually. He was much much older than me and the mindset around sex was just take whatever I’m giving.
As I’ve grown, explored and gained more experience, it was a novelty to me that sex could actually feel good…great even. Subsequent partners taught me that sex didn’t have to be painful. That my pleasure and climax ACTUALLY mattered. Taking the time to get to know my body and experiencing daddy take notice of my natural physical responses whether it be pleasure or discomfort and adjusting to make sex pleasurable for both of us has been amazing and a breath of fresh air.