Liberated

Please read part one first
After a quick bite to eat, Daddy wanted to spend the afternoon with me. But I’d already made plans to skate so I declined 😕. Daddy looked really sad and didn’t want to let me skate. So I told him I’d take whatever he’d give me in order to skate. A suggestion that I don’t regret but that left my pussy so so sore.

He pulled my panties down and bent me over (feet on the ground). I was already a little sore from our earlier activities so it was a little uncomfy at first but that quickly changed into pleasure as he once again angled into my spot using my arm for leverage. Cumming deep inside me again, Daddy gave me permission to skate if I didn’t clean out any of the cum and allowed it to leak into my panties the whole time.

By the end of all the rounds I came at least eight times. The group ended up doing eighteen miles last night! And I with a very sore and leaking pussy did the whole thing 😌.

This is different from what I normally post. But I wanted to document what happened last night 😅

I’ve learned that a 24/7 dynamic (for now) is not for me. I start to feel smothered. Daddy naturally switches between being more dominant sometimes and just goofy but firm the rest. Yesterday was definitely a dominant day 🤭. 
Daddy came over and joined me in the shower. After washing me down and moisturizing me. I got to work 😈. Body worship has become natural to me. I get so fixated on his nipples, gently biting and sucking all over his body, and devouring his yummy yummy cock. We also tried something new for him… rimming. I had tried it a couple times before in my previous dynamic (when it was demanded of me) but always felt gross doing it. This time I got immense pleasure making Daddy feel so good this time and will definitely be doing it again (any tips would be greatly appreciated 🥰).

Daddy flipped me over and ate my pussy until I couldn’t handle it anymore. I think I came over 3 times (got a little delirious with pleasure). He pulled me up, put his sexy time playlist and instructed me to ride his dick until I came in cowgirl. Then he turned me around and thrusted into me angling himself to stimulate my spot (a location he now has memorized in every position)  forcing me to cum two more times leaving me quite boneless 😭. After I became putty daddy held me down sitting on his cock and came deep inside me 😊 (a super big load). Honestly I was a little starstruck. I didn’t know he had that in him. After daddy gave the okay for me to get off his cock, I knelt and sucked him clean. 

We’ve had kinky sex before but this was the first time he went full blown dominant on me. It was 🤤 MIND BLOWN 🤯 but he had more in store for me (or I guess I asked for more 🙃).

“I am going to cum no matter what, so let me prioritize your pleasure.” - Daddy

A novel concept to me. Growing up in an extremely religious and restrictive environment put me at a major disadvantage sexually. I knew how it was supposed to be/feel but for the life of me didn’t understand the hype about heterosexual sex. Why did people crave and rave about it? 

Losing my virginity wasn’t a painful experience, it was interesting with little hints of pleasure. I enjoyed feeling close to him, however as I experienced more and more of it those hints of pleasure dwindled to nothing unless Mr.purple (my handy dandy vibrator lent a helping hand).So when I was ordered not to use it during sex more and more… I faked climax and pleasure ALOT. Something that I regret. It definitely wasn’t an environment focused on growing and learning together sexually. He was much much older than me and the mindset around sex was just take whatever I’m giving.

As I’ve grown, explored and gained more experience, it was a novelty to me that sex could actually feel good…great even. Subsequent partners taught me that sex didn’t have to be painful. That my pleasure and climax ACTUALLY mattered. Taking the time to get to know my body and experiencing daddy take notice of my natural physical responses whether it be pleasure or discomfort and adjusting to make sex pleasurable for both of us has been amazing and a breath of fresh air.

Am I really submissive? Was I just fantasizing about the lifestyle? What is wrong with me?

     All questions that plagued me in my first and subsequent dynamics. I simply did not feel compelled to listen and now I realize I was constantly being told what to do with no example to guide me and with selfish views and attitudes in mind. Do as I say not as I do.  “Live healthier because I want you to look better for me.” All of the commands were in view of and given with the intent to benefit or satisfy my dominant with out me as a whole in mind.
     My identity was cast away and I was squished into a mold of a submissive that modulated a lifestyle contrary to that of the dominant themselves but one of what they wanted so desperately for me to live. I was told to make drastic change and throw out what I wanted for my future image. The blind commanding the blind.
     At least for me, I feel most dominated and fulfilled when I’m led by example and love. I now crave to listen not because I’m being bombarded by commands but because I see the reflection of a lifestyle I want to live and in turn a dominant I want to please. 
     

Do you know who you are? 

Do you understand what has happened to you?

Do you want to live this way?

I almost tried to change who I am and who I have plans to be in order to be more appealing to a Dom. And in the aftermath I have had time to reflect. I knew in the beginning that he got with me in hopes that I would change. And although I voiced my concern, of my own doing, I was lulled into false sense of security. I lost who I was for a while but now I am back with more clarity than ever.

It is not too much to ask to be accepted. When what you voice is brushed aside or you feel you’re not being listened to, listen to yourself.

You know who you are.

You know what has happened.

And you know if you want to live this way.

I’ve never been naive maybe uneducated or green. But it wasn’t until I attended real lifestyle events that I realized how quickly online dynamics can become warped. Conversations and interactions on this site and sites like these tend to be overtly sexual. But we’re on a kink site so this should be the case right? Well yes... but also no. Let me explain.

(Based on my experience, don’t misquote me)

In my experience, most Doms try and often succeed in manipulating subs into giving them sexual favors under the guise of a real dynamic relationship. This shouldn’t be the case. If you are here for sexual gratification, great! Clearly state so. There are plenty of people here for the same things.

I learned from experience and unfortunately was taken advantage of. But this blog is here to help new subs navigate the lifestyle with some tools to avoid the mistakes and assumptions I made. A BDSM dynamic does not have to be about only receiving and giving sexual favors, it can and dare I say should also be about mutual fulfillment, discipline, and respect .

New subs don’t be afraid to reach out when you are unsure of something. (Also see previous post-Our advice to new submissives). New Dom(mes), take the time to learn and also clearly state your intentions. Form a support group of more experienced and knowledgeable individuals in the lifestyle.
I’m still learning but I’m always happy to share what I know.

*Hey guys, life got the better of me, but I plan to be way more active this year thanks for reading my twilight thoughts!*

No one is permanent. An ideology that has always caused me to keep in solitude. Sure, if you observed me in New York, in my habitat, you would assume I have a big circle. I like to keep it that way. But if my life was a scrapbook and people were pictures, I would tape them in my book; I never use glue. Nothing is permanent. And although outwardly I seem comfortable with that idea, my ideology, often I find myself longing for a constant, a permanent. (not necessarily romantic in nature) Drifting endlessly through a sea of people passing in and out of my life is tiring. I think I need an anchor.

But for now, I will use tape and never glue.

I met you at a time when my reality was shifted and you dared to care.

A very strange notion dared to care. And at this moment while I am writing this, I still have no idea why. So I decided to initiate operation avoidance because I knew if we became closer I would become emotionally bonded to you. A rare occurrence out of my control.

Operation avoidance failed. I couldn't stay away, though our conversations still few in number. After we talked, I slept for the first time in two weeks. That scared the living shit out of me. I opened up to you because you made me feel safe. That scared me even more.

But you are involved in a messy situation. And I am not one to raise my hopes. Sister or lover? What form of interest? Protector or Master? What do I want you to be?

My head, sequential, and ordered is now confused and jumbled because of you. And you have no idea, but I will never tell you.

I met you at a time when my reality was shifted and you dared to care.

From Me,

To You

Recently a group of us were answering a newbie's questions and she asked for advice. We told her what we needed to hear when we first joined.

*All usernames and material were asked and agreed to be listed beforehand by each user *

I'm assuming that you have TikTok so I would suggest you look up some really good kink educators on the app, I've personally learned a lot from them. I would also suggest you take the BDSM Test on BDSMTest.org it doesn't take too long, just be sure to be very honest with yourself on it, its a fairly accurate test that I recommend taking it around every 6 months to 1 year. There are people known as "Insta (or fake) Dom)<subs too btw> that try and force you quickly into a dynamic and don't respect limits or selfishly only think of themselves when talking to a person and will probably try and rush into using honorifics. people like that are who you need to watch out for and avoid. Since you are new, watch out for a trait you might accidentally pick up which is called 'sub frenzy' (Doms can get this too). This is where you have so much access to so many people right now and people are talking to you that you might be getting do excited that you just want s Dom right away without correctly Vetting him/her beforehand. those creators I listed, they talk a good bit about these things so definitely check them out.

-xxxalexxx

My biggest advice would be to take as much time as you need to learn about yourself. There is literally zero rush to get into anything. You want to make sure everything you do is safe, sane, and consensual. Also known as SSC

-Princess95

I would say to be careful with people on here and other sites. A lot of them are predators, abusers, scammers, and just straight-up liars. Just focus on yourself, making friends, learning about yourself as Princess said. Don't let anyone tell you what a sub is supposed to be or what a Dom is supposed to be. If you have any questions ask people who you trust and that are reputable here.

-I'llBeAGoodGirl

 Know your power. Just because you're a submissive doesn't mean you are nothing. You hold power in terms of your limits and decisions. Your submission is a precious thing. Give it wisely.

-From me

We certainly don't know everything, hell, we learn new things about the lifestyle every day. But we hope this helps someone out there.

With Love

From us Subbies

*Tiktok creators were removed (just to be safe) for privacy purposes. Message me for the list*

Now this might make some of ya'll mad but

For your immediate viewing pleasure, I will do...

NOTHING!

I get so many messages expecting quick and easy. I see so many personals looking for quick and easy. When has any form of substantial human interaction or relationship been quick and/or easy?

In a sea of puppeteers, looking for puppets with painted on smiles you will not find me.

I was not made for your viewing pleasure, and I am certainly not a puppet. 

So if you're coming after me, viewer discretion advised