This is a song by Chris McClarney and the lyrics perfectly describe how I am feeling right now.
Breakthrough
There must be more
Beyond familiar shores
Into waters unexplored
This one desire
Stirring here in me
Deep is calling out to deep
Take me from where I’ve been
Into something new
I’m giving up control
I need a breakthrough
All of my dreams and fears
Are crashing into You
You’re waking up my hope
You are my breakthrough
Your love, so wild
Conquers my defenses
Opens the impossible
It’s so amazing
How you take the ashes
And turn them into beautiful
Take me from where I’ve been
Into something new
I’m giving up control
I need a breakthrough
All of my dreams and fears
Are crashing into You
You’re waking up my hope
You are my breakthrough
You’re making all things new
You’re making all things new
It’s what You always do
You are my breakthrough
No matter where we come from, we all have baggage and regrets. We need that breakthrough, we need to feel new. Our past may have brought us here, but it doesn't have to define us; it doesn't have to be where we settle; sometimes we hold on so tight to our past that we miss what's right in front of us. For some of us, the horrible mess that we know is more comfortable than taking that step into the unknown, even though we know it is better than where we are.
