As I prepared to get ready for my first play party I didn’t really know what to expect, whar to wear or anything. I settled on a simple white dress and a black pair of heels. The party was an hour and forty five minutes away from me and started at 9 pm I got there at 9 pm on the dot when I pulled up to the venue a wave of a familiar feeling rushed over me hello anxiety. For what seemed like a lifetime which was really about an hour I entered a battle within myself weather I should go home or go inside. A series of the “what ifs” game was played and by the time I was done I was mentally spent. However I still decide to go in which I was surprised in myself.
upon entering I was asked for my Id, if I had my phone if I did it would be placed in a lock box and I did. I was then searched and told to “dress down” I had no idea what that meant but apparently my dress didn’t matter because I had to be in lingerie and or kink attire the thought of that made the room spin, but I slowly took off my dress and was left in a black lace bra with panties to match.
There were serval things that were happening playing, scenes,fire massages, social interactions etc... I talked to many submissive and some were very easy to speak with but the issue came in with the Doms serval approached me and ask to speak and I agreeed but it felt like I was swallowing sand and it took everything in me to speak when this became evident some politely dismissed themselves which I appreciate because I felt like I was drowning.
One thing that took place was a flogging scene and I more than wanted to watch. I took a seat semi- close to the front and shortly after the scene began. It was magical it was like a dance between two people, as someone who used to dance and my sister still dances when you dance with someone you have to trust them entirely when you do you move as one and it’s flawless. It wasn’t until the scene was over and my shoulders tensed that I realized I was completely lost in the scene my anxiety was at bay and I was fixated on what was happening. Until it ended and once again I felt my heart race and body tremble.
I decided I wanted to end a note as high as possible so with that I left I got dressed and left. Overall I’d give the experience a 5/10 everyone was nice and the flogging scene left me with an arousal I hadn't known before. I met and exchange contract information with some wonderful people. The lack of 10/10 is solely on me I wish I could’ve been more vocal, more social but I enjoyed myself enough to push myself to try again and I look forward to it.
For the first time I’m excited about what the future holds and hope soon I’ll get to experience the magic that flogging scene held
thinking out loud....
