sweater(sub female)

Journey as a New Submissive

Here is where I will talk about the ups and downs of my journey to finding my mentor and naturing my submissive plus all the things that come with it!

Confusion.. Terror... Unknown??

4 years ago. June 18, 2020 at 7:04 PM

As the 22nd approaches and I have Another a face to face date with a Dom I’ve been speaking with a sense of unease is building and I can’t place why. I feel it’s because things may work out with him and that’s scary but i want them to work out right? That’s the whole point of this...

I’m 23 years old and I’ve never been in relationship and I say that to say this I don’t have a problem with it, I’ve never felt empty or alone or any of those things that I SHOULD feel. I know me and there is no realm of uncertainty. But a piece of me wants this to work why I can’t really put my finger on it. But another piece of me is completely scared I don’t like change or the unknown I need things to be planned out scheduled. Just simply going with the flow is anxiety inducing but there is nothing to control here the only thing there is to do is “go with the flow” and I don’t know if I like that I don’t know if I can do that I just don’t know....

I want to I just don’t know if I can I don’t know if my mind will allow it. When i face situations like this my nature reaction is to run away I find safety in myself and in being alone but I also want to venturing out?

this made no sense and I’m just as confused as you are probably reading this. I’m trying and it seems like I’m losing a battle against myself.

Thinking Out Loud...

slaveMikayla(sub female){MstrJ } - You're doing fine. You will be fine. You are ok, and what you are feeling is NOT weird at all. <3

4 years ago

sweater(sub female) - Thank you 🥺

4 years ago

Sensual City Girl{ForeverHIS} - It makes sense and its natural to feel that way. Been there...it's hard to go with the flow. Go slow and go at YOUR pace and it will all fall into place and how it should organically. Don't rush or force it. And, enjoy the journey 😊

4 years ago

LongerJohnny(dom male) - Your unease is understandable. Changes, venturing into the unknown, a first step on a first journey to...
Take a breath. If you don't want to go with the flow - even if you like the direction the flow is going - then don't do it. Sure, heed your mind but don't ignore your heart. Venture out if you are ready but remember that sometimes running away is ok too. Just try to remember the way back.
And try to never forget that it is your turn, your decision, your permission, your life, and that you can only lose (or win) a battle against yourself if you are in fact fighting a battle against yourself. So maybe stop and take a few more breaths after that first one. There is no rush.

4 years ago

sweater(sub female) - Thank you kindly this was well needed

4 years ago

LongerJohnny(dom male) - You are very welcome. There are many people who have found themselves in the very same predicament as yours. You may do well to avail yourself of their advice and Cage is probably the best place to find those people and the support you are looking for.

4 years ago

slaveMikayla(sub female){MstrJ } - This was really well put. * thumbs up*

4 years ago

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sweater​(sub female)

Journey as a New Submissive

Confusion.. Terror... Unknown??

sweater(sub female)