I’ve been in a bit of a weird mood lately. Which isn’t very odd as I go through those stages. But today I realized I’m going through the really annoying stage. Some might wonder “what stages?!” I like to call some signs of depression and antisocial behavior I exhibit as stages. I go through times where I won’t talk to anyone unless I have to. There’s times I sleep a lot and refuse to wake up at times. My recent behavior I would term as...boredom. What does this stage entail? That I find the hunt for new subs boring. I was going through ads from male subs looking for dommes and although I found a few cute promising ones and thought of messaging I found myself tired and bored of going through the motions of getting to know them as people for a while and then as a sub and decide if I’d like them or not. And even if I like them they might not always end up liking them at the end. For instance, I’ve been talking to a sub local to me and at first he expressed a lot of interest in me and now he barely ever even talks to me and even when I message him he sometimes won’t even reply so I’ve given up. I could call him out on that behavior and point blank as him what the hell is going on but based on previous experiences that doesn’t work out too often. And while there’s some subs I’m talking to they don’t stimulate my mind, they don’t make me think hard. They aren’t a challenge for me. I need a challenge, I need to feel my blood pumping, I want to hunt my prey and eventually catching them. It’s boring when the prey doesn’t get caught and that is now my problem. I’m bored of having ants when I want a deer or maybe even a mountain lion. And now that I’ve discovered my bored state I plan to bulldoze through it like I do most things. There isn’t a point in analyzing for too long or deep as to why this happens. It just does. And I bulldoze through it. So I’ll just go talk to some new subs I might find boring or not and wack the hunter in me a few times in the head.
The song recommendation for this post is a song I sing quite often because of how beautiful and soothing it sounds ☺️
