I Didn’t Know
I should have known.
I didn’t fight it on purpose. I didn’t know that what we had could be more...would be more. I didn’t know I was fighting the pull because I didn’t know you’d already wrapped that rope around me. I didn’t know that every turn about the room was another loop made around my waist. I didn’t know every person I met was another knot in the line that secured me to you. Every exchange, every question, every lesson brought me back to you.
I should have known it was you.
It Was You
You were there from the beginning.
You stood beside me as the world around me revealed itself.
It was your arm that I held as we wandered through “the room.” Your lips to my ear with the answers to questions I had.
You, who I leaned into when I felt shy and timid. It was you whose hand I clung to as I began to explore and let myself be swept up into my own submission. You, who I confided in and needed to catch me when I stumbled.
It was you, whose arms I ran to when I was awakened and turned away. You, who breathed me back to life when I thought I’d suffocate. You who made me smile when I wanted to cry.
It was always you who my heart was tethered to.
Who I Belong To
I don’t know when you sent the others away.
I don’t know when you turned around and cradled my face.
Your left hand tangled in my hair so tight, while gently caressing my cheek with your right.
Sweet sinister promises whispered against my lips. I’ve waited my whole life for you, for this.
I revealed my secrets and confessed my fears. You accept all of me and wipe away my tears.
I shared my deepest hopes and darkest dreams.
You speak the words that give my heart wings.
I opened my eyes and gave you my hand.
You showed me the beautiful beast behind the man.
I am willing. I am ready. And I am here to say... Please Daddy, take me away.
