He decided he didn't need her. He decided on change. He was trying not to hurt her by the lies he would create telling her he loved her. Why do people think they can tell you they love you and the world is right again? It's not that at all. Love means-
an intense feeling of deep affection.
Innocence in giving your heart, your desires, your wants to a person knowing they will protect that love and protecting the unity between those people. Trusting they will lead you to water when your thirsty, one who covers you from the sun. Honoring in a sense you will be happy with this person.
When you mix BDSM with love together, you get the best of both worlds. What you didn't realize was he will not be satisfied with you, he will always want more. He will seek what he wants and he will hide things thinking it's protecting you. Does it really protect you? Having two lives mixed together is my desire. Living with someone 24/7 is a dream, but if there is no trust, honesty, consent, and love, it is not for me any longer.
Bdsm for me is a freedom to be who I want to be. I can say if I can't have both worlds in my connection to submission I will not be fulfilled. I will no longer stay content.
I am a special gift, I'm still innocent, but I have found what I want in my journey of exploration. It's a power to educate yourself. It's a power to change body, mind, and soul. It's not a cheap chat, late at night when your cock is hard. It's not a hotel sleep over where your not respected, it's a love, a power, a mind stimulation you share with someone. Letting them know the real you and seeing if they can handle you as you are. If they cannot, it's not your love your handing them, it's a hotel key left on the table as you notice he left before you. You are special, what you have to give no matter your size must be earned, not given to just anyone, at anytime, to fulfill his itch. You hold the power until you hand it over. Respect the lifestyle, communicate your needs, negotiate your limits, and present yourself to him or her, when those goals have been met. Not a moment before. 🎀💋🎀
