A lot has changed since my last posting. I was off the site for several months. I came back because my relationship is over, and I needed something - help, advice, a virtual hug from people who would understand.
I became a submissive for one man. I began exploring BDSM for one man. He was the only person who knows me and knows I am into BDSM. And he is gone and I am alone. And now who am I? I guess I need to figure that out, because I don't know right now. But I'm here so I guess that's a start.
So I will begin to share here. I will keep walking each day until I can breathe again, until I no longer feel like I am drowning. Maybe I will make some friends. Hopefully, I will smile and regain my laugh.
He was my everything but he is gone now. So now I rebuild. Day by day, piece by piece. First, I tell him goodbye. He wants to be my friend, but it isn't the time now. Now is the time to rebuild me - because trying to be his friend is killing me. Maybe in the future. But for now, I learn and grow and heal. I can do this.
