The past three days have had ups and downs that I never would have expected. Friday, I found my first true Dom. We have been friends for a while and during our conversations, I thought the roles would be reversed. However, he is a switch and decided to be Dom just for me. It completely changed our dynamic and I wasn't expecting it at all...but what a pleasant surprise it was.
He is currently out of the country because of the virus going on but he should be back in a month! The things we have talked about so far make me all the more curious and excited about his return. While I am horribly new and uneducated about a lot of things sexually, I trust that he will teach me and not judge me based on my inexperience. He has decided that I will keep an online journal for him to view and figured I could use it in my blog here as well, in case anyone else would like to read it. :)
07/02/2020 *
Today started off as a really bad day. I lost a friend today, there are just some things I can’t condone. Sir was with me through it all. He let me cry, held me, distracted me, and comforted me. It was nice to be held for once.
We added safe words today. Red is stop and Yellow is slow down. In the heat of the moment, they can be simple yet effective.
Sir instructed me to pick three activities that I would like to research and practice based on my interest level. Out of the level 5 category, I would like to research animal/pet roles. A leash and collar seem really interesting for me and a major turn on. My level 4 category would be lingerie. I would love to find out what different kinds there are and what my Sir would prefer to see me in. My level 3 category would be asphyxiation. I love the thought of his hand on my neck and it would be wise to know the safe way to do breath play and what to look out for as warning signs.
We researched and practiced the proper way to do breath play and established the difference between sexual and abusive breath play. We also included a safe action if it gets to be too much in playtime, tapping his leg twice. We practiced the action for short intervals, getting me acclimated to the sensation. Then we researched different kinds of lingerie, figuring out what I liked and why I liked them.
Now, for my readers:
I had a small hiccup last night. We discussed orgasm control and I used "Yellow". I was super nervous that I would fail at it. Are there any ways to practice on my own to get better at it? I would love to be able to surprise him with the progress.