Been doing a lot of soul searching recently, I work on my own in the middle of the night and I have way too much time to think Ggrrrr it`s a curse and a blessing i have the best job ever but has it`s slow times lol.
Thing is for the first time in my life I`m thinking i want a kid stupid youtube video`s tugging on my heart strings Ggrrr I`m sooo getting old I used to laugh my ass off at kids falling over walking into things now I`m like Omg hope they ok. I`m getting broody or the male equivalent which i suppose is still broody lol
So i know to have a child i need to start dating again and everything that entails, Problem is I dont know if i will find what im looking for in the BDSM scene, yes i could date within the community. but ya got the whole having to go through that side of things before you even get talking about the other side of it all, if ya know what i mean. And im getting old and i dont want to wait too long so im bouncing my brain back and forth over what to do.
Not really asking questions here by the way for anyone reading this more getting my thoughts down, In for me what is a safe enviroment to be able to speak on such things, I could do it on paper but i write like a doctor lol And thats what blogs are for really getting your thoughts down i suppose :)
