Let me describe what goes on. . .
Its been a months since I've been talking to a decent guy. . . I'm thinking the few, that aren't taken, are hiding from being cheated on and hurt before.
I keep getting message after message from guys let's fuck, bang, or I'll make you happy through pleasure. I used to love sex. However I have extreme female health issues in which sex hurts.
I want friendship and love. I want someone who understands me.
So now when I get a message, which is far and few, I get excited. I get hopeful. I try to be cautious and not desperate, but I am lonely. I wait on the slow internet, and get antsy. Within the 45 seconds of loading, I envisioned a cute, decent guy into me, morning texts, making me laugh, and wanting me for me.
I load up the message to find out the guy had either blocked me or deleted his account. Instant let down. Sigh.
I know its fate keeping one less creep away, but if a account is delete or they blocked me, then get rid of the empty message, please.
I started this morning with sketchy internet and empty message. Oh yay, I feel rejected by the internet.