Rant 53
I'm not into "online fun," and I've mentioned this before. I am currently turned off, and I have not found the right guy to turn me on.
I love a good conversation, but words don't turn me on. I'm sick if guys just thinking their dick. (Yes, I miss giving blow jobs, its for that guy that I am in a monogamous relationship with and care about and that he cares about me.)
Online is just a tease and I do not do cam to cam.
Rant 54
I do not want someone with kids. . .once you are a parent your kids should be number one always. (Even If you don't life together.)
Please do not tell me that you'll spoil mem but secretly leave your kids hanging.
I'm not mean to be mom or a step mom, and I do not want to be.
It's not your fault or your kids fault, but I'm going down a path with no kids in it.
If you have kids (I dont care if they don't life with you are newborn or are full grown.), please seek someone else.
Rant 55
I think rather win the lottery and travel than get hurt again. I am demi-sexual so I need an emotional connection and commitment for sex, and I'm not ready for both. Even my muses have not been into erotica for months.
My ex and I broke up 3 years ago , and I was not completely over him when he died Jan 2017. I still compare others to him. We were together 8 years and engaged twice. We even had a wedding ate determined out at one point. (I was told as long as I was comparing, that I am not mentally ready to move on. I'm not sure when that is and until then I'm just seeking friends, preferably around my age.)
I'm going to take some time and heal myself.
Final Note: I think I'm going to take a break on sites and blogs like these. If we are messaging on here, please ask for my email.