tallslenderguy(other male)
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4 years ago •
Jul 22, 2020
4 years ago •
Jul 22, 2020
i feel like i don't have any masochist in me, at least on a physical level? i sometimes wonder if that didn't get conditioned out of me because as a sub child (and i can see retrospectively how both sub and gay i was as a kid), i seemed to attract bullies left and right and was always being physically abused. i theorize that i was attracting immature doms who also didn't yet know their self or how to express their dom nature, but who knows?
Spanking, though i have never been spanked as an adult beyond the few smacks on the ass from a Top, it is a tentative desire for me. But different from most descriptions i read.
For me, the D/s dynamic is thoroughly connected to a Dom's need/desire to affect, influence, put His 'mark' or signature on or in me, ownership.... sorry, got a little excited there. my fantasy spanking is always with His hand. The idea of having His hand print on me is very appealing. The other is i always imagine the spanking as a seductive process. i don't like or want pain, but i am turned on and fulfilled by pleasing Him, so that can be used to influence me. The seductive part is some spanking porn i have seen where the spanking is an affectionate event. The Dom speaking affectionately the whole time, even comforting, petting and soothing between spanks. The affection, comfort, petting and soothing, done right, would seduce me into taking... probably, wanting the spanks in between. "Tear" for me would be similar to having my Dom's hand print on me. i could see how this could be a huge mind fuck.
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