tallslenderguy(other male) |
4 years ago •
Aug 1, 2020
Re: At which age did you realize your submission or Dominanc
4 years ago •
Aug 1, 2020
tallslenderguy(other male) • Aug 1, 2020
kajirasubm wrote: I was asked this question once, and it gave me pause.
My submission was simply natural to me. Yet I began thinking ...what a great question - When was my defining moment? In retrospect... There was this one boy whom I had such a crush on. He held himself differently from all the others. And was a bit of a lone wolf. Friendly with everyone, but held himself apart. He was well respected though. His eyes were icy green and my heart would skip beats whenever he was near. Our lockers were in the same row. He at one end. I at the other. One day I was running a bit late for class and trying to get my locker open, put books in and take out the ones I needed. He walked over and very calmly said " let me" He opened the locker, took the books from my hands and asked which ones I needed. Did I answer??? I couldn't even breathe, let alone speak! He carried my books to the class , and was waiting outside when my class ended. Carried my books to the locker. Asked me to have lunch with him. When we got to the lunchroom , I explained to him that I never eat lunch, but of course I wanted to sit with him. He quietly looked at me, and went to buy his lunch. Brought back a strawberry dannon yogurt for me. One word " eat." More words " you'll eat lunch everyday with me." Walked me to all my classes and met me afterwards. By the end of the day, as he walked me to my school bus - he said " something about you , makes me want to take care of you " Now back then, 14 was still 14. We were simply good friends. In retrospect, I realized that was the defining moment for me, in terms of whom I responded to and, " the why." I will add that was my first encounter with a Dominant. Interestingly we were both naturally drawn to each other. When did you come to the realization of your submission or Dominance ? Wow, what a great story. i too have similar experiences that i can pin point through out my childhood that are examples of my sub nature as well as examples of other boys dom nature. As you note "14 was still 14," or in my case, as early as age 7, but i have quite of few experiences that have given me better understanding of my sub nature during my childhood retrospectively. One of the experiences i think i've shared in The Cage was a neighbor boy i had a crush on at age 7. He used to be mean, and push the envelope with me and i always went back for more. One day He took me into His bathroom and showed me an enema nozzle, explaining in great detail and with a sort of lust in His eyes how it would be used. As soon as i got home, i found our family enema kit, removed the nozzle and followed His instructions, inserting it into myself imagining Him doing it to me. I also had a cousin who i had a crush on and we spent a lot of time together ages 10-14, but especially around age 11. He was a year older, athletic and had all the markers of a budding Dom. When i was 11, His house was in walking distance from mine and i was at his house constantly. He always wanted to play tackle football. He was athletic and i was skinny and sort of weak. He'd always 'win' (a slaughter really), and He took great pleasure in tackling and subduing me (it wasn't hard). i didn't;t particularly like being roughed up, actually not at all, and would try to get Him to play something else. Invariably, we'd be back to Him wrestling me to the ground and subduing me. Though i didn't like the roughness, i always wanted to be with Him. When i was 15, He had moved to a resort and my family was going to move to the same place. They sent me to live with my aunt and uncle and Him so i would not have to change schools. They had a small house at the lake and i had to sleep in a sleeping bag on the floor next to His bed. His electric blanket control was next to my head and i used to turn it up to "High" when we went to bed, hoping He'd get hot and throw HIs covers off in His sleep. 15 was still 15 then, and though i wanted Him, i had no idea how to show it or go about trying to connect with Him in the way i felt. He'd lift weights and i'd watch adoringly, but nothing ever happened. i still have dreams about Him to this day though it has been decades since we've seen each other or talked. |
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