Rylie Nimbus

sub trans woman

38

Single

Ello, my name is Rylie. I'm a geeky gamer, anime fan and IT professional. I grew up on Nintendo sleep overs, backyard campfires, and late night chatrooms. I want to bring that energy back into my life and relationships. Despite being an introvert, I can seem quite talkative and extroverted at times. I can be pretty animated and passionate about what interests me, but I feel like I am prying if I ask too much of others unless they offered to share.

I am here, and elsewhere, primarily to find a partner(s), more friends with shared interests, and have discussions. I am open to online, eventual in person long distance, but prefer to meet people local enough to meet face to face.

I am a polyamorous, demi-sexual, trans-feminine person who is still one foot in the closet. I often have a difficult time navigating social and dating worlds because my outward appearance conflicts with who I am on the inside. While, I am not particular about my pronouns, the closer I grow with someone the more I wanted to be seen as and treated as a woman by them. This particularly shows in my romantic endeavors. I tend not approach others and initiate.

Gender expression matters to me but I am attracted differently to feminine and masculine energy. I really couldn't define a type. Personality or build, everyone carries themselves differently and can be attractive in their own way. That being said, I tend to be sapphic.

My relationship with BDSM started long before I knew what it meant. I have always been submissive and enjoyed taking on a certain role in social situations and games with others. I joined the lifestyle officially shortly after I turned 21, and quickly became involved in a TNG group an hour away. Shortly, there after I stepped up and chaired a sister group in my own area with a board of like minded people.

Initially, I discovered kink through a fixation with diapers and the trappings of babyhood. To this day, ABDL remains my primary kink and the role I most identify with is that of a baby girl. That quickly led to bondage, female domination, humiliation, pet play and the list goes on and on. For awhile, I was misled in my gender identity for a bit by cross-dressing and forced fem. I let myself believe I was just a cross-dresser and it felt safer to be feminine if someone was making me. That is still a force in my life, but the motivations have changed from a form power exchange to a deep desire to have a mentor and supportive person helping me transition.

Today, I am driven by a desire to submit, take on diminutive roles, actualize those roles, not just play pretend, and to be seen doing it. Aside from being an adult baby, I identify as a puppy, a maid, a toy/doll, and want to realize more fun and interesting submissive roles. There are very few mainstream, and some not so mainstream fetishes I don't have some interest in. I enjoy being bound, helpless, humiliated, and having my senses deprived or stimulated in a variety of ways. I am a proud and able size queen taking toys large enough that I am sure I could take a fist or average woman's foot.

What I am not is an extreme masochist, at least not for physical sensation and while I often crave humiliation, objectification, and dehumanization I don't want it to be sadistic or emotionally mean. I do enjoy a good impact scene, but I am not seeking the bruised and bloody look afterwards. I am also not extremely sexual. I enjoy giving and receiving orgasms, pegging, and sexual activities, but always with a kinky focus. Intimacy and cuddling is its own thing with or without kink. That is part of why I prefer polyamory. I want to know that my partner's sexual needs are fulfilled, by more than me as their a human sex toy (a role I adore, but isn't the same thing).

Let me get back to you on this one. I'm pretty open-minded but I do have my limits. I just need to put them into clearly defined boxes.

Jun 10, 2023

Jun 10, 2023