7 years ago. October 31, 2017 at 2:28 PM
I had 2 very thought provoking conversations yesterday that made me decide to start a blog and share my story. The first with a very Special Dom whos sub is one of the luckiest women in the world to have such an amazing man catch her. We talk about anything and everything and I consider him a mentor. I told him my bucket list included sky diving which terrifies me to the point of panic attacks. So why is it on my list? Cause one day I WILL be strong enough to overcome my fear and just Jump. And as he so gracefully put it if my chute doesn't open it'll only hurt for a moment. Lol thanks again for that thought. I'll come back to this later. And the 2nd was with 2 beautiful Subs. I realized that I'm not the only Sub that is broken, confused, scared, and lost. We all have our stories I'll share mine over time. There are many Subs I'm sure like me that question if they'll ever find that one Dom strong enough patient understanding and caring enough to break down the walls to help put the piece of what use to be me back together, that one perfect Dom that can calm my mind, body and soul. Yet I'm scared terrified really cause I am broken I've been physically, emotionally, mentally, and sexually abused so I second guess my value my worth my purpose. We all wanna fall in love but how do I trust he'll catch me when I do. So put the two conversations together. I'll never find what I seek until I have the courage to JUMP. That the perfect Dom could be at the bottom waiting to catch me but even if he tries he fails unless I actually jump. That if I don't take chances, push my limits, find courage, and jump I'll never be caught. And if my chute doesn't open it'll only hurt for a moment.
