I am still to learn patience and to feel comfortable in my solitude.
People are not designed to be alone. We crave touch, smells, sounds and tastes of other people. To be connected mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually. I do usually enjoy a little peace and a little solitude. I am an introvert by nature. But that does not mean I dont desire connection. I love nothing more than a deep connection. But today I am missing that contact. Ive been at work and had people around me but its a different feeling than just being social..... its missing that depth, craving that feeling of desire and happiness of contact. To feel flesh and taste words, to breath in the masculine and feel connected to my feminine.
I made a promise to myself to be more open to possibilities and opportunities and then the world closed down like an Alanis Morissete song. So I have to wait a little longer and continue to try to learn that golden rule of patience.
Sometimes I feel like a dog chasing its tail. I might switch and change directions but the result is always the same. Im just never quite fast enough. I think when this is all over I will try find a cuddle buddy. Someone to give and share closeness with that does not overstep my boundaries..... cause everyone needs a hug sometimes and company in quiet closeness can do magical things. It helps, heals and fills your heart with little words spoken.
Stay safe xxx
