Sitting naked at my desk that sits at the end of my bed. Typing away on my computer finalising the last points of my research paper. Its a cool morning. My skin slighty tingles wanting warmth. My heart, a large fire or light keeps me going ignoring my bodies desire for clothing or a blanket. I want to feel more alive this morning. Focused on my one task.
I was disheartened yesterday and it feels to have carried through to the morning. So no I dont want to hide under blankets and clothes. My pride had taken a hit.
Yesterday had started with positivity and love for myself and gratitude for the things around me. But my life this week has been messy. The man I called my Daddy left me as soon as he had arrived. Like a whirlwind of fire and passion. But he taught me some fast lessons, and his pure presence ignited my own fire for life. So I spent a day in my emotional cocoon then healed and felt marvellous by morning.
As I sit at work accomplishing my day I received a phone call from my doctor. Appears that is not all he left me. He gave me a mild virus to contend with aswell. A parting gift...... thanks. But ok still not going to let it dampen me. I will focus on my university work and in myself.
My last assignment did not reach as high as I wanted and I found out last night. At the end of my day full of work and unwanted phone calls. I was drained but focused. Needing to complete my assignment. But now my spirits where dampened and I started to doubt myself. Maybe I wont pass.
No
Stop that
Deep breath and refocus. Spoke to my study girls who helped guide me back to where I needed to be.
So today I sit naked in the cool morning. Allowing my energy to feel depleted. Because I have achieved my task. My assignment completed. My mind can rest and my body and soul can heal it. Let that skin tingle. Let my mind be at ease. Breath and have gratitude.
Not every day needs to be a new challenge. Its ok to be still dear soul. Its ok to feel tired. Rest. Love. Recover. Sunshine to clear my head and warm my heart. Meditation to find my way to my next step. Rest. Love. Recover. Continue
Xxxxxx
