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Silent Observations

Just my random thoughts as I try to learn and grow
6 years ago. June 30, 2018 at 2:03 AM

He said he would ruin me for all others. That he would make me crave only him. At the time it made me smile and on the inside I didn't think that would be possible to have such an effect or hold on me. But he was right. He did everything he set out to do but i did not realise the effect until he was gone. Without a word and without a trace.

Now even after time I am still in love with a ghost. And i think i forever will be. I am thankful to have known such a feeling but it also hurts. I desire the control but also i loved his affect on me. I flourished under his care and I now struggle with the fact that i can not be so well adjusted without the rules, the structure and love. No matter what i try. I also dont wish to fill that void. Because it is his chair and his alone.
A part of me still waits patiently but i feel it is a lost cause. He will not return but yet my heart still waits. Forever and always his star

T slave​(sub female)​{Owned} - Loss without closure is the hardest to bare! I am sending you a virtual hug!
6 years ago
Starlight82​(other female) - My loss was a while ago but cant seem to break free from it. But thank you xx
6 years ago
Redtailedkitty - *huggs* it is such a horrible feeling. Send you love and light, Star.
6 years ago
Bleiz​(sub female) - So sorry, I know how painful that is. **Hugs** ?
6 years ago
Bunnie - ☹️
6 years ago
ShellyBeans - Hugs my friend. Xx
6 years ago

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