Silent Observations

I've set rules and restrictions on myself for sometime now. Sometimes for the benefit of others more than for myself. Yet i keep finding myself wanting to ignore them. To venture out to places i said i wouldn't go. I say im stopping here...... then tip toe over just a smidgen and smile at myself. Each time venturing that little bit further. Im waiting for the day i will just ignore those rules altogether and wonder why i made them in the first place. Was it to restrict myself and show some self control. Maybe to prove a point to myself and others. Maybe because i thought that was what was expected of me. Either way im finding the allure difficult...... to be continued (insert devil emoji here lol)