Last night I was talking to a woman I admire she was going through some of her pain with me for her to open herself up to me in such a devoted and trusting manner already put me in a delicate position since she had taken three shots.
I know alcohol has a tendency to cause people to loosen up people have been using it as a social lubricant for years, however I never felt right even in just a conversation if shes only welcoming me into her sphere because she's relaxed more then usually then -- I would hate to violate our trust.
She made it quite clear not only is it a natural way, but it has only made her bolder in her feelings.
To hear that finally from someone I had always admired and desired almost caused me to faint are we really cyber sexting -- what even fucking is this?
I don't know, I never wanted a long distance thing or online thing, shit even when people tried to have phone sex with me it felt kinda weird.
But in this moment last night just talking with her felt as if we understand eachother in a way that made my body sing. Imagining the things she says she wanted from me or to do for me.
Then she gave me a warning that she gets aggressive at times in real life I was thinking oh thank goodness. As someone who started BDSM in there teens and works as an EMT if it ain't intense is it even happening. I have had vanilla sex before with women and my god my mind just isn't backed into the moment at all I am forget phoning it in I'm just thinking about what I gotta do later today, or if I left something in the oven.
But passionate sex with someone you love: nails, teeth, force, sucking, fucking, rubbing, drinking licking. When both parties are covered in sweat, cum and my white skin matches my pink pussy from the engagement now that's a relationship with compatible sex and someone worth keeping forever. 😉
Sadly right when I was starting to feel my lips drip wet she excused herself to bed and I was so damn horney and frustrated 🥴 how could she go to bed at a time like this! She gets me going then teases me by sleeping, man she went from goddess to brat prettying quickly.
I tried to go to sleep as well but I kept tossing and turning in part because of the locktober challenge I had been a part of i had masturbated to orgasm in 2 weeks and she primed me in a very vunerable state so I had to just write to her.
You talk about coping with sex i know your asleep but man you got me going I am in almost agony because of how wet and longing I am for you.God if I was with you tonight I'd want to love you like it was the most important thing in the world and at the moment it is.
Then she responded why do you think I excused myself? She didn't go to sleep we were vibing and both our bodies couldn't take the attraction any longer without being addressed. I was so bashful finding that out.
I almost wanna blush even now 😳 I am shocked I can have that effect on people, especially a woman I'm capable of falling for 🥰
Yet I made a promise to myself to not take myself to orgasm because locktober and forcing Chasity and sexual cleansing can raise focus and desire.
Yet after tossing and turning I finally went to sleep but my dreams were of her. Shes studying to be a doctor so its gonna sound cheesey but hey it's a dream deal with it. If you read this far into the blog here's where you find out what caused
me to have to clean my bed today. While I was asleep I cam and all around my vagina ended up being a puddle.
So I am visiting her and its getting late wne were just going to bed and we haven't been together yet she looks at me and i open my blouse to expose my right breast and tell her "I have a problem doctor I think my heart is broken" then I continue forcing it into her hand as she's still kinda surprised.
Is there a treatment or prescription. She joking back says 'you know if your heart was really broken you'd need a referral to cardiology do you want me to get an AED"
I then say I think the only shock advised is you and i pull her into me and kiss her forcefully on the lips savoring the taste and then letting it slightly graze my teeth as she attempts to pull away for air.
I look concerned as she has a momentary look on her face like shes considering what to do next.
I see that hesitation as if she isn't sure if she wants me to feel rejected I sulk and sit on the bed ready to apologize for overstepping my bounds when all of a sudden she leaps on me tackling me into her bed and ripping my top off exposing my tender breasts nipples starting to swell almost painfully aroused.
Having just a moment ago think she was not gonna go for it I was nervous as a bunny. What is this hunnie i thought you weren't sure.
That's right i wasn't sure what i wanted to do next with you! And then she forced her wait into me smooshing are breast as she holds me tightly and beging to passionately kiss me as if that wasn't all she was up to her thigh somehow finds my vagina and is pressing on me rubbing with a forceful intensity in rythem to my body.
Then she says it I wanna hear you please show me your soul as we mate. I start crying from the intensity from the moment and i grab onto her and start kissing her neck nibbling her and then finally a jolt through my body casuing everything to shiver I can't hold it in any longer and i let out this yelp of exhilarating arousal. She knows she scored a victory and grabs my breasts and starts sucking on my nipples getting them to the point of nearly standing then she looks at me it dead faced and pokes me in the nose. I was like what's that for and she says see being a woman aint so bad silly 😜.
I hug her crying saying I never wanna leave her.
Well I could go on but outta time especially since i still gotta clean this damn bed. Curse you infernal woman 🤣