Ho Ho! You see what I did there? Sometimes I’m funny! Welcome back reader! I’ve missed you! Sadly, I just haven’t had much to say recently. But how have you been? You ready for the holidays? I know I am!
Im laying in bed typing this out on my phone. It’s dark outside still. I love that. I’ve always been more at ease in the dark. I’m not trying to sound all emo or anything. But daylight hurts.
During the day, people are out. People are active during the day. It makes the world busy and sometimes scary and oftentimes confusing. Obviously that’s how humanity works. Do shit during the day, sleep at night. I’ve never liked that rule.
At night, in the darkness, the world is quieter, obviously. It’s more peaceful. You can breathe, you can relax. You can get lost under a blanket while looking up at the night sky staring at the stars. The night has a way of making you feel small, almost insignificant, but safe. Or at least it does for me.
I’m seeing the light starting to creep it’s way in as the sun rises. As the world spins, the sun comes up. Science! But with the sun, there are expectations that we must meet. You have to do stuff during the day. Most people have to work or go to school or take care of their family or be otherwise productive.
Is that my issue with daytime? I don’t want to do stuff? I want to be lazy? I think that’s definitely a part of it. Another part is the general anxiety that comes with the world being awake. If bad things happen, a lot of it happens during the day. Clearly things like murder and rape happen at night too, but I’m talking more big picture stuff. When was the last bombing to take place at 2am? Chaos is a daytime thing.
so I’m a creature of the night. And wow that sounded emo too. But with the world asleep, I can breathe, I can decompress. I can be happy.
But the sun rises, the light pinks and oranges of the sunset hitting the horizon. With the sun, the fear and anxiety rise. What does today hold? Is today the day the world ends? Very unlikely. But it’s always possible.
Don’t worry, my dear reader. I’m happy today. It will be a good day. Despite the somewhat depressing sound of this post, my life is good. Just the musings of a madman awake before he should be.
The sun is rising. And now so am I, for I have to pee.
