Random thoughts from the rusty armor

  There was a fire about two miles from the place I live. Wild fires are not rare around here but the conversation that I had about it was. I stepped out my place and saw the smoke. A neighbor started to freak out because it was so wide and somewhat dark and headed our way. 

 

  I stated that the smoke was made by dry grass and was being sprayed down by fire trucks as it was turning white on one side. Also there was about a mile and a half and at least 6 streets between it and us. About that time we could here two choppers flying over the area. He looked at me and asked "news teams?" "no water choppers starting to water down the middle. Just watch the center". A few minutes later large amounts of white smoke went up in the center.

 

  About 4 hours later he saw me again and asked how I knew everything I had told him. "I am from the country and it is best if you know a fire by the smoke. That way you know what is going on before you get there and know how to handle it".He laugh and said " I guess you can skin a buck and run a trout line as well?" "I have skinned a few bucks but when it comes to trout lines I find dynomite easier and faster." He kinda freaked out and asked if I had ever used dynomite. I laughed said no and just watched as the last of the smoke cleared away. 

 

  The news that night talked about how six trucks and two choppers dropped water on the fire. Still no idea what started it but I am glad I am in an area that they understand that a grass fire is something that needs every truck they can get. 

  I am retired and waiting on knee surgery so I can get back to work. God I hate all this sitting around doing nothing. I have talked a lot on some of the post so if I offend any one please forgive I did not mean to. Just let me know if I needs to shut up or back off and I will give it a shot. I will give it a shot and try something else to keep insanity from pretending it's Grant and my brain is Richmond. I just wish Amazon would hurry up with my new coat. I can't wait to see if the extra long arms are a warm as it looks. 

                                                                                          TTFN

  There was a young boy years ago who was taught that life was about right and wrong. You either followed one way or the other but to do either had it's set of rules and problems. As time went on the lines between right and wrong where not as clear as they once were. As the boy grew wrong was not always wrong and right was now always right. Most importantly being able to judge either was harder and harder. Those he could look to to find the right way he soon found where not always going the way they said he should go. The right path that once was a single lane now looks like the road map for the LA highway system. 

 

  Now older he looks at the world and wonders what happened. Did he die and end up in hell with no one there to tell him? Is he in some strange new world where everyone does what they want with out thinking about others? Or worse yet did the world change and forget to send him a memo about it? Where did the days of old go where when you opened a ladies door you did not get an evil look and yelled at? Now it is even hard to tell what a lady is. Hell even the word lady is something to think about now. I should use the word woman but the definition of woman is kinda blurred. Personally I think a woman is someone who does not need a prostate exam. (Kinda shortens the field on what a woman is). I would say a man is someone who never needs a mammogram but I have a friend who has bigger tits than both my daughters. 

 

  There once was a woman who told me in no uncertain terms that she was a lesbian and she would never sleep with a man and only like women. It kinda confused me because under that definition I was also a lesbian. For some strange reason she took offence to this thought and told me so in many colorful words. Maybe I just did not see her point of view. The older I get the less I understand. Right is now so right any more and wrong is only wrong when someone else is doing it. 

 

  I am not even sure if I was going to make a point or where I was going with this but at least I feel better now it is out. 

Unsure of how long I have been away. Not even sure if I will still know anyone here. How long has it been? nearly three yrs? I would say my life    has had it's ups and down but why lie. I hit a slippery slope that dragged me close to hell. I can say if I looked up I could see the bottom. Still there are those who fell farther than I ever thought of. Still the climb back up is slow and I am not in any hurry to get there fast. There are somethings in life that take time no matter how badly we want them. 

I can only hope that along the way I can help a few others get to the next step if not help them get back as well. No there has been no drugs or drink involved in my fall just something that had to be done to teach me about what is needed out of me and the lesson has been taught and learned. The Gods will show no mercy on me and I will ask for no quarter when my final fight comes. My only legacy will be the friends I leave and the love I have shared. TY to those who have read this always remember the light shines forever.

 

  We talk when we can and we share what we can. Still for me it is to little and I so want more of you than you can give now. I understand we have to wait and someday I will be able to cross off the first line on my own bucket list. We have lost touch a little and that is my fault. I have things I need to do before I can take your hand and show you things that you have yet to dream of and lots of things you think will never happen. 

  Just know one day my dream will come true and on the shore of my home land we will watch as little sister slowly climbs up and shine on us. We will use her light to find our way and as mother sends her waters to tickle your toes I will take your hand and we will finally dance under the light of the moon and know what happiness truly is. 

  Till that day I will just have to keep you in my heart and on my phone. Always wanting more but never pushing you fo r it. Some day you will see me heart is your even though there are others in it who came and left before you. Never be jealous of the for they are gone and you are here. They helped make me into what you needed me to be and now you have someone who will honor and defend your life and heart far better than his own.

  I follow the law of the Highlander "There can be only one". The choice is yours now to become one and follow what ever path is laid out for us or to keep our lives paralleled and to walk our paths alone but as friends. I lay my heart at your feet yo do as you wish. It is now yours to hold as dear as I hold you or to toss it away like the trash I once was. 

  If it pleases you I ask that you listen to two things that will say what I cannot. My heart sings a tune I do not understand but it fills me with light when I hear it.

. Until I have the pleasure of hearing your voice again remember until God tells me to stop I will love you and at that time He will know what it is to be fought. Sleep well let your dreams take you to my arms and lets us fly to places never dreamed of. Until my last breath my heart and steel is yours to command. 

 

  May your light shine show me the path to you

                         Kelpi 

              

  I have always said I will never ask for pictures other than your face (if you so choose) to send them (yes I am a Dom). I just had a talk with a friend and was told that because of something that happened as a child she has a defect she feels makes her less beautiful there and is worried others will not find her as beautiful as she is. After thinking about this I told her the truth. I will spend more time looking at her face that anything else. I hope to be kissing her face more than anything else. More importantly if what she looks like (Down there) is that important she needs to find a man who has some common sense. I love her pictures she sends me (she has great legs) but when the time comes that I get to see her sweet spot I want to be able to not only see but touch and several other things. Anything else is just a tease and she does that enough with out pictures. 

  Does a nude picture help make your mind up if you want to be with that person? Why? If anyone else sees her nude it is because we are kicking it off her bucket and kinky list not because I am showing her off. I know her wants needs and hopes and dreams. More importantly I know how I feel about her and what she is starting to mean to me. She tells me how she feels and what I mean to her. If I was blind that is all I would need to know. Since I know what she looks like well that is just the cherry tree on top of the cake. 

  SO does it matter what she looks like with out clothing no but damn I am glad she does send me pics of those legs!

 

Tal Ya'll

  Kelpi

  My friend how long has it been since I last listen to your words. When was the last time your laughter sung in my ears. Days? More like months to me mind. The mind plays tricks with time it seems making minutes seem like hours and a day eternity. You asked for time and that is all I can give then I will give a life time for it is not in my power to give more than that. What if it where mine to give? would you want more than just the one? Two three maybe more? Your voice. It seems so long ago since I listened to it and smiled. With so little in this world to be happy about your voice was was the moon my ship needed on a dark night. Will you not let your voice light the way back to you? Or will you let me drift in the dark never knowing if there is a port I may call home again?

  Since I got back on I have seen so many good subs have their hearts broken. Is it so hard to just say I am not into this any more or I want more than you will give? Beautiful women just dumped and for no reason. Well there was non given. One day they are chatting happy and content the next the dam is gone and not a word. Like he was never there. his account deleted no sign or anything about his is to be found. It's like he vanish is a puff of smoke. 

  I can see is there was a argument or if something happened to him but this is like a side show magic act. Hell David Blaine would have a hard time with this trick. So why does it happen? Why not just be honest and say "hey been fun but got someone else"? 

  Personally I would rather stay friends with her than not have her in my life at all. So why hurt someone so much they make a voodoo doll of you? If we are going to call ourselves Doms then we should act like Doms and never just ghost anyone. If you should do it stop acting like a Dom and start calling yourself what you really are a fool and an little boy who can't handle real women who know their worth.

  Thank you for reading my rant is over ..... for now.

  We have only just met and we have formed a great friendship. I have said that given time to heal I will tell you the words you want to hear. I asked for time because I will not lie to you and when I say it I want it to be as clear as a Rocky Mountain water fall as honest as a Texans hand shake and as true as Gods own words. My phone rings and I know who is calling with out looking. I stop every once in a while and know your thing of me. 

  I asked for time because we have both been hurt and I will do hurt you as you have been. I will not lie about my past my future or my present. You know me and you know the dog I was and still am. This old dog still sniffs around and barks but he don't chase any more. I am not sure if it because he has gotten to old to tired or just found something to stick around the house for. Only time will tell. 

  You have told me you fantasies your bucket list and your dreams  I have told you how I would love to help you scratch off all three list and then add some more. Now let me tell you mine I want to snuggle on cold night I want to sit on the porch on cool evenings and just swing with you and me wrapped in a blanket watching the stars. I want to have a place where the grandkids can come and feel love and peace when the get out the car. I want a fire place to warm our bones in front of most of all I want you in my life till it ends. 

  I want to make love to you under the water fall I want to snuggle with you under the stars. I want to do everything on your fantasies list then do them over again. I want to show you the great state I was born to and show you why so many gave their lives for it to become a country and a state. Someday if God so wills it I want to kneel in the Alamo and give my respect to those who gave me the privilege to become a Texan a American a dad and maybe something more than just a friend and lover. 

  I do not know what the future holds. I do not know if I will be here past tomorrow but I do know I will leave one day knowing I was granted the chance to know you. I have never been a good man nor a totally bad one. It is a believe that was taught to me that if we do enough good and protect those call for us that if the scales balance out when our name is called to take our place as guardians of the gates. When I am asked why I should be given this honor I will be able to say "you never asked if I wanted kids you gave them to me and I took them as my own and loved them as my own. When you sent me to help those who fought for our freedoms I never asked how I just started to make plans on how to do it. When in my darkest hour you sent her to me as a friend and I never looked back or asked for more. When I asked her for time she gave it to me. On the day she gave me steel I took the knee and made the oath to her and I have never looked back. You tell me it is an honor to guard those gates I tell you it is not an honor but my right to do so to repay all the people and things He has given me in my life. I tell you that should every thing in heaven and hell be started three times over it still would not be enough if all I did was guard those gates of fire for having known her in the time you gave me. It would not be enough to repay You for for her and what she gave me".

  All I ask for is time to heal and on the day I take steel I will take the knee and pledge my heart to the last woman I will ever be with. After that day I will work to bring you only joy and happiness into your life. Until that day I will not say to you the words you want so badly to hear because when they are finally said they will be coming from a healthy heart full of joy and happiness. When you finally hear the words you will know they are true and that I am yours and your alone. Until that day know you are my friend and if you call I will come and I will bring bring a fury with me that will amaze God and scare the devil.

  Our planet is 4.5 billion years old and lets face it we are the new kids on the block. Planets have been born and dies before we started to take shape. Suns shine on many colors of grass mountain that may have boggled our minds and valleys that would make you weep to look on their beauty. Suns have given birth to many creatures and die to give birth to black holes. The music and lives we will never know about because we are so young. We do not know what lays beneath the blue waters that is so dear to our life but we still reach out to the start from which we started. Yes the song writers where right when they said "we are star dust". 

  I have listened are read the writings of those who have been hurt and have done nothing wrong to be hurt. Their only crime was to give their heart to someone they thought they could trust. Why is it they are punished for this? If you have found someone else or have found they are not who you thought why not say so? Is the truth so hard for you to say? Or could it be your just not human enough to let them know? Before I was told to leave my home I knew she stopped loving me when I offered my arm and she did not take it. Something at one time she was thrilled with. I think I know why I left but still think if I could have been able to talk to her instead of at her we could have lasted longer but in the end it was going to be this way. I just wish I could grieve for what we had and what I lost. 

  Seems like I have been looking for several life times. I can honestly say I have only been married in two of the many I remember. Still I have know many a wonderful woman who I have loved and befriended and fought beside. I still grieve for one after 32 years who left to early and one who in 1985 took a place in my heart with only a smile and a hello. Sometimes I give out my friendship way to easily but my time here is short and I like to talk to people and I want to know as many as I can before I move on. 

  Yes time is short for all of us and there are times when some do not get a chance to start it at all or have it cut way to short. Next time you start to form a tear for one who let you down ask your self where they worth that tear? Are the worth those that will follow? No not now or ever are they worth a single on of your tears. 

  Tal from 

      Kelpi