Just me

As night falls and darkness surrounds me i feel his arms wrap around me, in a way hiding me from the dark. In his touch there is a calm. My body relaxes and the fears that live inside me slowly creep away. Sleep may come but i know sleep with him will be a safe one. He gives me the freedom to be quiet. He is the last person i talk to and the first. He ends my day and starts the next. I never thought i could feel that i belonged to someone, or that i would even want to. Without seeing it happen i have done just that, I belong to him.
As a sub we are suppose to submit but i think there is more to it. Yes we make the choice but do we really. I think in this life the mind figures out long before the heart what it wants. That is where the conflict comes into play. In my normal life my heart was so broken and mashed that i swore id never find another. I thought i could do this and keep emotions out of it. Boy was i wrong. My brain knew what it wanted. It wanted that one person to challenge me, make me try harder and see myself. It wanted to be blank instead of chaos and it knew what it needed to do that. It needed a man, to tame the thoughts, to push the dark hidden corners. It needed him. When my heart finally decided that it was done throwing a fit and my brain saw it peeking in it quickly grabbed it and pulled it into the game. Now dont get me wrong i still am very very cautious of my heart. Once my heart is all in this poor man will forever own me.
I just finished a book at his request and there is part where she questions how she feels and how she could feel that way for her master. I get it. Now that my heart is catching up to my brain i question myself too. How can i give so freely to this man, he hasnt become part of me its the other way around ive become part of him. I am for him. Only him. I am here to please him. In doing this i give me all of me, broken heart included.
I always asked in giving your mind body and soul doesn't that include your heart? Well id have to say yes, in order to serve you have to love whom you serve. When you love it pushes you to be the best you can be for them.