Just me

Anxiety,
Every day i struggle to make you my enemy. I didn't understand that maybe i need to make you my friend. You play games to mess with my head and make me feel less than. You beat me up until i cant even see what side is up. You make me doubt what i have. You make me scared to say things i feel. You have been with me my entire life and recently decided to make an apperance .you create sleepless nights and long days. Shoot you even effect my health. Its time i stop and accept you. Stop fighting you and running and turn and hug you.
You are part of me. Everything you make me feel makes me a stronger person as i fight thru it. You have shown me how to stand when i am broken, speak up when i think i can't be heard. You gave me courage. In running from you i ran through so many other storms and survived. I think you anxiety are really my best friend. You pushed me when i was so scared i couldnt breathe. Now i have to ask this as my best friend please take one fear away from me.....
The fear of being left because im not good enough. I am my own worst enemy with this fear and push everyone away. I doubt peoples intentions and think that they are just a drive by. The fear i have here feeds you my friend and i need you to help me deny it. I dont want to push anyone away anymore, Especially him.