Just me

curious butterfly​(masochist female) - "So now the question i have is how do i find me again"

No one can honestly answer that.

It's a journey. A damn hard one. But, hey, you made it to the realisation. Now is the discovery.


I got lost. It took me years to find my me again. Years. And I wasn't the me i was before. There were times I didn't even have an identity anymore. Times I didn't even feel like i saw me in the mirror.
In that, i learned lots of things. What I want from my life. What is important to my me, and what i would desire from a relationship. I was clearer in my emotional availability, the bits I need to work on, and what i want from a potential partner.

But, I had to stop the world. That was my way. Everyone will have thier own formula. I spent time alone, doing things. Enjoy and hating things. Learning that I actually enjoy my own company exploring myself, emotionally, physically, and all of the ways you can. My me Iearned fun things, about my sexuality, and hard things about what I need to change in who I am... BUT I TOOK TIME FOR ME..

I read, I took up new hobbies, I removed lots of people from my life, i learned some kinks. I changed career... and im still growing.

Not going to lie. Its fucking hard, but oh so worth it. When you feel good, keep the momentum. When you dip, allow yourself to feel. Accept it. But then pick yourself up, before it takes a deep hold.

Everyone needs to learn themselves. And keep learning. From within and without.

The best part for you, is that you have hit that realisation. And now, you get to explore your own journey. Become a newer evolved you.

And then, you get to approach new dynamics more self aware, more resilient, and with greater clarity.



My biggest lesson, was that its only my me, my all of my me, that can make me happy. If I look to others, they will always fail me, because they won't get it right, at best it will be fleeting. But then their role will not be one of choice it will become a burden. And that is selfish and not fair.
People enhance our lives. Not make them.

Pheonix J​(sub female) - Very wise lessons thank you. This isnt the first time for me either. I found myself once before and was doing well but work consumed me. So now i have to learn to adjust again.
Thank you for this

Bunnie - Beautiful :)

rosethorn​(sub female) - You are not alone in this xxxx i had a similar realisation recently and a bit of a meltdown.... sending hugs your way x

Pheonix J​(sub female) - Thank you! We can do this cant we!

rosethorn​(sub female) - Remember its okay and normal to feel like you can't its a very challenging time. Remember to look after yourself during this time its important when things start to feel like can't that you look after yourself it helps with putting can't into can xxxx

Cherry2000​(sub female) - You are amazing for being selfless in this time of crisis. You are a wonderful friend and mother. Those of us that truly love you understand and aren't going anywhere. You make me proud to be your friend. You will find calm and be able to get back to yourself. Soon hopefully. I know this has taken a huge tole in you, but you are strong and resilient. Love you girl! 😘

Pheonix J​(sub female) - You dear lady know the amount of crap ive been under and i appreciate that you still are here. Thank you for your friendship

Cherry2000​(sub female) - Always. 💖

Lion​(dom male){Hazel Eyes} - Be yourself, you can't save everyone they have to find their own way through life, trust me I have tried and failed. Be true to yourself and happiness will become clearer.

Pheonix J​(sub female) - Thank you lion. Life isnt about the easy path is it. We wouldnt be better versions of us without the scars