Just me

    So I had plans for this weekend. I was suppose to be enjoying time away doing something I love. I was suppose to be finding out more about me and who I am. Needless to say plans changed.

     I am so overwhelmed with a sense of defeat and sadness that I feel myself shutting down. I don't know how to find my place with this change and to accept it. There is nothing I can do to keep the plan I had moving forward because my job is the reason it changed. Yes plans can be changed but when you were looking forward to something so much and it's taken away you hit the ground hard. 

      So empty bags now sit at the end of my bed, a sad heart weighs my chest and a sinister brain plays its games. This is almost as bad a drop